Friday, July 31

what happens when you are the victim?


My tea's gone cold I'm wondering why I..
got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window..
and I can't see at all
And even if I could it'd all be gray,
but your picture on my wall
It reminds me, that it's not so bad,
it's not so bad..

i like mariah careys obsessed. because i like mariah
i like eminem too. scratch that, i own all of ems albums
then i heard the warning!!!
okay eminem got her real bad on that one... what?
which brings me to limes
yup. limes
dats wot i call an old relationship
like my best friend and her boo used to be an item you'd love
the best i had ever come across
that was last year
now they dont even talk... its gone sour
thats limes

mariah it still occurs to you that i have pictures?

thats a classic line
anyway back home
i think its amazing the number of dirty shit that comes out after a break up
i cringe everytime i hear a couple break up
cos i know its gonna be a week
and the stories start making way to your circle her friends and frenemies

So the other day i was talking with my brother, and he subtly said something about how girls should never be caught in compromising situations or do stuff they would regret or allow themselves give someone a reason to blackmail them
word.
I know he was just trying to tell me the kind of jerks guys can be
i hold his words like gold!lol
Which makes me wonder
isn't being in a relationship supposed to be full of trust
so much trust
you practically live in each others shoes
in each others lives... for each other
In my shoes, just to see
What its like, to be me
Ill be you, lets trade shoes
Just to see what id be like
To feel your pain, you feel mine
Go inside each others minds
Just to see what we'd find

but that's not even possible anymore
gone are the days when guys delete pictures immediately after a break up
clear their room, phone of anything that reminds them of the girl or smells like her
nowadays after a break up... guys look 4 them in every nook and corner
old memory cards, old phones, i swear they go that far
just to find something to show a friend
who will show a friend... who will...
But then again, my instincts are never wrong
am sure yours are not too
you can smell a guy who likes drama from a thousand miles. my advice? STAY AWAY
just the way he talks about 'the bitch' <-
-> his ex girlfriend, should be enough warning for you
you shouldn't just run away from him, pull of those jimmy choos, hold them and run in the opposite directions as fast as you can
1 minute
i need to laugh at that hilarious picture i just conjured

lol i need to love up with my books
nude pictures (and many other things) should NEVER be sent to anyone. i repeat. anyone
and for those that say a camcorder is the best turn on
ahh OYO men, u are so on your own i have nothing to say
i cant shout!
'nuff said
xxx

Sunday, July 26

Exam week!!

hey again!
been down with the usual migraine
it did not kill me though - it just made my life unbearable for a whole day
I have exams tomorrow, i have been reading like i should
Just took a break to pull out what ama wear tomorrow and decided to holla
Just added another fantastic blog to my roll

Currently listening to: Taio Cruz Break your heart




1. What is your name? Sweetness


2. A four Letter Word: />Sexy


3. A boy's Name: />

Seyi
4. A girl's Name: />
Samira
5. An occupation: />
Stenography

6. A color: />

Scarlett

7. Something you wear: />

Sweat shirt

9. A food: />

Sushi
10. Something found in the bathroom: />
Soap
11. A place: />
Switzerland

12. A reason for being late: />

Sleepover
13. Something you shout: />
Shit!

14. A movie title: />

Sweet November
15. Something you drink: />

Silhouette Yogurt
16. A musical group: />

Soundgarden
17. An animal: />

Squirrel
18. A street name: />
Saheed Balogun Street (somewhere in lagos am sure theres a street like that)

19. A type of car: />

SUV
20. The title of a song: />
Sexual healing

This is a very pathetic excuse for a post
The next one will be better
Oh the sprinkler is back again
Mwaaaah!

Wednesday, July 22

"...and my head keeps spinning, i can't stop having these visions"


'...well he's looking at your toes now, hes gonna do sushi with them!' and
'aah i did not read her note on facebook i just 'liked' it so she'll be happy'
yup. she gives me joy. i can laugh all day if es*ay isn't watching another movie, her favorite pastime

My presentation went very well thank you.
Last night i was blasting oldies with loove
chaka chaka: thank you mr dj for playing my song....
am burning up, am burning up... my heart is on fire, am burning up....
this is from me to you
all we have to do....


brenda fassie RIP ...its your wedding day its yoooourrr wedding day
i remember past years
how old was i? dancing in the sitting room with my momma
seriously screaming along with all my strength while trying to concentrate on the video...
yup i sang along yesternight too
my lines are even crustier now
aah i did not stop there, i went on to king sunny ade (no not the recent ones like lift nigeria... i like that one too though)
the olddd ones, i remember my mom used to have them, and play them.... jeez happier days. i dont know the words but just listening to them after years made me feel so... content
like some moments are yours they can't be taken from you ever...
i went on to listen to oumue sangare's ah ndiya, yes u guessed right, my mom again
and saadu bori... umm my dad this time
nostalgia

so i am feeling kanye west like never before
umm yes am an official jeezy and weezy and yeezy (can i say teezy 4 T.I? no? really?? aww, sad)

anyway i can listen to those four
and MI of course
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I haven't watched a hindi movie in a while

i remember my best friend in secondary school she was my namesake
and half indian, she was always going on about this indian mini-god
so one afternoon she calls me
hey switch the channel to Sony
and i did
and she excitedly gushes
"ohh dats him, isnt he adorable?"
it was a head and shoulders ad
weird face
weirder smile
*n-o-p-e*
i did not find him cute
she wondered where my taste went lol

so one bright sunny day i had ran out of old movies to watch, then i was rocking RMDs violated and Sandra Achums When the sun sets (they were actually very old when i was in ss1)... i stumbled on this film my friend gave me kuch kuch hota hai
it was translated and so i watched it
3 hours later (yeah they are that loooong)
Three hours and a roll of tissue paper later
red nosed-red eyed and happy that true love was reunited at last
i called my friend, oh my God, i loveee SharRukh Khan, hes so sweet!
"oh yeah? 3 weeks ago u said he was ugly sweetness!"
"oh that was him?.... oh... um i guess he looks better... without dandruff"

jeez. shoot me!

My best hindi movie is (no, not slumdog millionaire, give me a break!)
Taare zameen par (stars on earth), about this dyslexic kid, the disturbing things he went through and how he overcame it, really nice.


I love hindi tearjerkers only if it has SharRukh in it.( only being the keyword here)A dying SharRukh can be a classic
like Devdas or Kal ho na hoo (if tomorrow never comes)


I stay away from the really cheesy ones, which is the reason i havent watched one in a while... Since Black


now that should have been the oscar movie... dont get me wrong i do love Slumdog millionaire too...


My friend Bob (he doesnt like it when i call him this) left for naija today, wish him a safe flight, we all miss him already


***leggy dear, am not sure my comment box will ever be open, i dont really write much when i know am gonna get feedback, i tend to keep somethings inside, thanx 4 mentioning it and i still stalk ur blog... i liked the one on ur sisters especially, by the way marcaroni... nothing too special, u aint missin much. kisses***


I am going to my books now. My books need me, i need my books.
Its gonna be a long night
muaaaah!
xoxo sweetness!

Sunday, July 19

You give me J-O-Y



a weird kind of joy
so last night i watched another old favorite for the hundredth time
bringing up baby cary grant and katherine hepburn
yes dat one! its so old its in black n white
that movie was made in 1930 something
and it gives me joy in a way no one understands
maybe its katherines high pitched voice
or his quest for the intercoastal bone
or the tiger 'baby' :D
i derive weird pleasure from watching that film

so i have been listening to kanye all day
and working on my powerpoint slides for tomorrows presentation
i should be back here before midnight

Saturday, July 18

reality check! family guy


... DISCLAIMER!!!this post has nothing to do with the title

damn i think the cropped hair was a really bad idea...
you know its like when you are in a certain mood, and you do a particular hairstyle... so what happens when that mood wears out, like mine has... i am totally not feeling it right now
now i understand how tatoos can be a mistake
*today was my best in 3 days*
i did not see the sun
spoke to less than 5 people
read 7 pages in my Holy Book

and
i made my self throw up
twice...
old habits come back easily
i try not to read about bulamia
cos you would see the guilt on my face
but really the smallest things set it off
today it was a sharwama i ate... and i was like eww
do i really need that in my system?
then i started dancing and singing
and i went to wash my face
then i put my fingers down my throat
again
and i felt much better thank you very much
theres no point telling myself i wont do it again, i always do it

anyway to something else
i almost died when i was 8 (i think i almost die every 4 years jeez)
nobody ever told me that u cant push the top of the freezer open from the inside (are you serious?)
during one of those 40 degrees afternoon back home
me and my cousins were always playing hide and seek
and there was this day i almost entered the freezer to hide, besides it was hot
i had opened it already and wanted to pull a chair to climb and tumble inside the freezer and hide till my cousin came, i was pretty sure she wouldnt find me, then i realised the dining room chair in front of the freezer would give me away and i entered the store instead
needless to say, she found me first
and we there were six of us playing...

dangerous games kids play
my friend told me about her 6 year old cousin they found dead in the freezer.
another of my friend said when she was younger they locked up their friend in the trunk of car when they were playing and totally forgot her until evening!
a family friend of ours found her beautiful two year old drowned in the bathtub, it wasnt so long ago it was 4 years ago
these accidents just had me thinking...
and we always insist that a child playing at home is safe *shudders*

games adults play
Hard to get is not a game
its a state of mind
if she acts like she doesnt want you
stop flattering yourself, she doesnt want you
get over yourself
you are not that charming
or shes just not into you


to less disturbing stories
as an official stalker of the def jam poetry
i should have my favorites up on my blog
- or maybe not

i added 6 more blogs to my blogroll today
i desperately wanted to comment on 5 posts i read today but
i did not
because i have disabled comments on my page
thats what being faceless is about isnt it?

weirdest question someone ever asked me: are you a lesbian?
subhanallah
what??!
my lack of interest in the opposite sex... wait a minute
i should not even address this issue

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aww happy married life D*nde***o
u were like a big sis to me
we were close friends
we had our ups and downs but we overcame them
i remember when you used to give me crazy makeovers
when we used to dance infront of the television
how we cried over the silliest movies
our coke and pepsi addiction
our fights over Dan browns
evening rides to video mars
singing loud in the car when driving back home
laughing for no reason when those toasters were ogling
you are probably the most beautiful girl your age i know
lol and your nickname d*nde***o
happy married life xoxo
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i want to watch an old movie tonight
something tragically sad :D or seriously hilarious
*sigh*
i need to go do my laundry and sleep miss unveiled
ill see you tommorrow
xoxo
its me sweetness

this...discomfort!


***you are a like a thorn , you should be clipped off***


Remember what Momma always says
"trust ur instinct"
and you know your girl right?
... right?
i grew up to have weird bad feelings about every single thing
from a particular kinda look, to going out, parties, friends and all that
i more than trusted my gut feelings
i closed my eyes and placed my gut where they should have been. :)
and as a result i was always...erm ... safe
but what happens when the other girl in me revolts
and brushed my gut feelings as a cheap reason to procastinate
and put a temporary stop in my Utopia
when i overlooked my natural first instinct
and did something the veiled me felt was not ideal to do
might have been something very simple
like buying those stilettos i could not walk in, or giving out my number
miss unveiled keeps saying
'enough already with the excuses
bad feeling my foot
its just a trial'
trials
does this phrase sound familiar
i stay away from sin
because i wouldnt forgive myself after...

burning mirrors show the flames on your face

back to my instincts
when am faced with a decision or when i meet someone for the first time
i subconsciously filter through this persons aura or the situation
and that determines every other thing.
when somethings just not right
not right
i trust my instinct and back off
but on one of those days when i decide to walk in high stilettos - oh well
i always smile at myself n say
i really saw this coming
i saw the signs
i should not be surprised
so, unveiled if you dont mind i will like to dip my dainty lil feet in hot water
thank you very much
its mee sweetneesss

mood today: Navy blue all day... yellow towards midnight
i shud read my Quran more often

Tomorrow: The perfect whyte programme starts, i'll tell you about it later

xoxo

Friday, July 17

what you know about that?




distubing picture yeah i know
i am sure she did not do it intentionally
we all makes mistakes dont we...
but oh well. guess what happens happens
you`ll get over it

Today: I stayed indoors all day
I laughed when: i was watching failure to launch

I was wearing: an orange top n black pants
I read: another case study portfolio
Mood: not bothered

Right now: i really should be sleeping
Havent blogged in two days because: of my mood swings

I am in love with: myself at the moment
I have a crush on: nobody this month
My friends are: sleeping i guess
Next big plan is: travelling away for a day
I badly want to: nothing...am too relaxed right now

This time last year: hmmm let me see... lol i was still the same, staying out of trouble and reading too much romance

Last time i cried: 4 days ago, had stomach cramps
Last lie i told: told some gee on the bus, my name was ayeesha
I miss: my mom

Current listen: Karl wolfs Yalla habibi
Really bored with: you know everything bores me
Happy that: i washed my hair today, i conditioned it and i blowdried it, 12 hours later i stretched it
Phobia: hasnt changed... heights, deep water and guys
If i were a guy: ... but am a girl, a happy one at that

I hate: weird dreams, and i have been having disturbing ones
I wonder if: vampires do exist

I`d like: guys who respect themselves
I love: a guy that has no drama
Ì`d get along with: any girl whatsoever
I really hate: people interupting my privacy, or me-hours
People dont know that: i have a really bad memory
People dont believe that: i hate crowds
Worst thing someone has called me: Snob! haaa bless!

off to bed... sweetnessss

Sunday, July 12

Burning ice


"Cool exterior
Fire within
"

hey!! bless blogsville
more and more interesting posts everyday
i simply love everyone here, i mean everyone
i had a great weekend
and i cropped my hair
keri hilson inspired even though it turned out in a rihanna-ish way cute!
(shoot me)
anyway its fantastic and i am loving it
*guess what i watched again?*
parent trap, its been so long yeah
i know right :-) these things i love
so there was a summer get together over the weekend
and it was great
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so yesterday, around dinner time, everyone in my house got talking about relationships and how they go bad and all that
which brings me to my very favorite - long distance relationships, like seriously do they really work?
i dont see why not
i am really comfortable with them
but when is long distance really too much distance
i love my space. is that a bad thing?
especially since most guys generalize that when you are not with them
you are definately with someone else
which is not always true.
u might not be with them-true
but you are not necessary with anyone else
*sigh*
i have never been one to bother myself
thank God for my really short attention span... plus my bad memory
I was watching The Game again
imagine if right about the time you are about to exvhange your wedding vows then his fone starts ringing (which should have been off by the way)
and its his (hmm how do i categorize her) baby's mama? ex? ur worst nightmare (just kidding)
maybe not
having a baby. no. his baby
lmao


why is everyone always on beyonce's case?
jeez.
so what if sweetdreams has the same dance as all her others?
so what?
there are a thousand and one other female musicians if u dont like what you see
change the channel, skip the video.. who cares
ohh by the way

*bowing head in shame- UTMOST shame*
i am back on facebook
*sigh*
lol
sweetness
u wont change
anyway i hope this week is gonna go on fine
better than fine, excellently

i love this joke "You know you have a drinking problem when the bartender knows your name -- and you've never been to that bar before."

I leave thee with these words “Always remember that problems contain values that have improvement.”
xxx

Friday, July 10

u make me smile


Just want to share some random poems he wrote 4 me
since i dont have anything to blog about
i love the way he writes
i love a guy who writes well

i remember a cold chill creeping up my spine
and the sound of ur voice sayin i was gonna be fine
i felt lyk i'd been stabbed and soaked in brine
quite interesting it wasn't the end of the line
i used to think everyday that you'd be mine
but the good stuff goes quick like a bottle of good wine
feels like its been a year, what happened to time?
to have u in my arms again is my wish divine.

"why do u sound like u wanna pick a fight with me?"
everytime i read that my heart screams "i'm sorry"

then i plummet into a world of nostalgia
and sift through quite a handful of items of memorabilia

and return wen i remember it's not meant to be,

just yet,
another reason for me not to fret,
a very pretty sight in my mind manifest,
that everything that happens is a test test test.

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i'm at it again
wont back down till i'm tied with the chain
the one that'll do away with my disdain
the one that'll neutralise ur's and my pain

why's it so hard to speak wen ma mouth's open?
words dont come though they've carefully been chosen
afraid another chord might get broken
and it is yet another point proven

what rhymes with mystery?
how ur thoughts are woven with such dignity
how we're so far apart yet still going strong
how we turn right whatever between us is wrong
how we can, if we choose to, make history
how only one can relate to this piece of mosey

noone has to know where u been
noone needs to hear about what uv seen
as long as u'll never stray oh so far
in my eyes u'll always have a slate so clean
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you can't talk to me without having a fit,
you do what you do without knowing you do it,

you do unto me what you wouldn't do unto others,
you never believed in what's said about birds of a feather,

you elevate and relapse me as though u were a fork-lift,
you keep me going lyk i was working a night shift,

you stand by me, you define forever and ever,
you know who you are, and if you don't, don't bother,

to me, you're nothing short of a heavenly gift,
thinking about you sets my mind adrift,

and when i resurface i realise that there goes the offer,
but you tell me not to mind cos one good turn deserves another.

******************************************************************

i thot i knew but apparently i dont have a clue,
as to who u really are or what you really do,
what goes on in ur head or what u say thats really true,
whether i'm really being me or ur really being you.

i'm never at a loss but i think its the season,
for me to smile and remember everything happens for a reason,
to remember just how free i truly am,
when i end up feeling lyk i'm trapped in a prison.

i find myself thinking if distance is a good thing,
if the fact that i aint near will have an impact on ur mood swings,
if i can live thru another winter and another spring,
knowing u may never know that u are my everything.

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sweet huh? i know
pity we are just friends

current listen: living a lie
rihanna and the dream
xoxo unveiled
its tired-sweetness

...thy sting


Built a wall around my heart
I’ll never let it fall apart
But strangely I wish secretly
It would fall down while I'm asleep


This life. Its getting scarier
i am scared of calling my friends back home
everytime i do, they go... do u remember ***?
he is dead, or she is dead
And none of these people is even past 25
its true that the death rate is higher
around ages 16-26
78.56% of the people i know fall in this group
life is too short, am seriously having a rethink on everything, for real
what if tomorrow never comes?
everyday i wake up, i thank God deeply
i am not better than the people who did not see this day
yet here i am. alive
Praise be to him
and everyday we go through a thousand and one death traps
choking on the toothpaste
slumping on the toilet seat
falling in the shower
electrocuted by the hair blow drier
struck by lightening on your way out
getting hit by a car
dying of suffocation in a stuck elevator
food poisoning during lunch
getting shot in the station on your way back home
getting stabbed on the bus
falling down the stairs
seeing a death parcel on your bed- and opening it
or the worst, just letting out one long sigh
and slumping
just like that :(

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for all the people we have lost
lets say a little prayer for them
we'll always love you
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on other things
it worked!
i woke up at 7am :)
i was so tired, i actually slept
and a dreamless sleep for that matter
bless!
so i got up, did all the necessary things
and went to school for my case study with L.A
we were done in an hour, i went to the lab to print some documents for my project
and i was going back home, and there was this guy beside me
hey hey
whats ur name?
do you speak french?
i have seen you a couple of times...
can i walk you?
how bou ur number?
***
hmm if u kno the number of random things in ma mind right now
anyway i got back and i completed my assignments
submitted them
went to La Senza with Es*ay, then grocery shopping
came back, had spagetti then sang westlife on top of our voices
watched some stuff
started a novel... listened to maroon 5
Can you see me
Floating above your head
As you lay in bed
Thinking about everything
That you did not do
Cause saying I love you
Has nothing to do with meaning it


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someone asked me a disturbing question.
are you capable of loving someone?


*silence*
am like what?!
of cos i am blah blah blah
i just hate it wen guys do..
i listed bou seven things
and even...
(another one)
but apart from that i am a very tolerant person
i can overlook most things
am just not a clingy person

Wednesday, July 8

girls day out


give me something to believe in cos i dont believe in you, anymore... anymore ¸
and i wonder if it even makes a difference to cry

oh nooo!
aaah i love maroon 5
i was in a beautiful mood all day. i still am
so last night i slept by 11pm and woke up at 3am. could not sleep after that. great
school was fab... always is

i kept noticing random things all day
during my class
YH, my classmate, who sits ryt in front of me had his laptop open
and he was on facebook during our five minute `smoke` break
and he was going through his pictures
and this picture just caught my eye
this fine black guy
okay fine guy is not something i use that often
but this guy was fine, i actually stopped what i was doing to look at the picture
he was a lil darker than me, nice eyes... barely there mohawk
the next picture was even better
then the next one
mr fine guy nd the guy in front of me
k-i-s-s-i-n-g
okay i dont know why i was shocked
i always suspected that YH was gay. cool
i guess i had never seen a gay black guy
lol
a fine one too
so my friend went `is that your boyfriend`
and he was like yeah dats my baby
and all i could think was
**nothing**
awesome

so i told my friends bou my insomnia
leenarh and enkayy
they were like we need to get you tired
so tired ur eyes wont stay open when you get home
so after class we travelled all the way to orleans
can you beat that
totally unplanned but so much fun
then we watched public enemies
johnny depp
*sigh*
SPOILER ALERT
*you might wanna stop reading now if u wanna watch this movie*


i hated the fact that he had to die
twas a good movie tho
we went shopping before that
tried so many shoes, we did not know which ones did not look so good
had lunch, more pictures
time went by so quickly
and of course i kept noticing the most random things
like how asian guys and black girls make a cute couple
how yellow sandals look green in yellow light
how much we all need our friends no matter how independent we claim to be
like how glorious strawberry and chocolate and butter pecan icecream can feel on a hot summer day
how much i despise drama
i hate drama
so i stay away from drama
and guy.. u have drama. so me and you. can never be
how much u just wanna hug someone really tight just because
how much i miss my family
how u never realise how responsible you are until u are far from home
how u never realise how irresponsible some people are until they say some things
how the simplest things are the most confused of all
how much a good father michael jackson must have been
how imperfect we are, and how much we strive to attain some sort of perfection
how i love Gucci bags and gladiator sandals
how the most beautiful things are noot the most expensive
how you can feel alone while surrounded by friends

how people you never knew
suddenly become your family
and even more
how i love everyone in my house

okay its 12 midnyt
am off to sleep
and since am so exhausted lets hope i dont wake up in two hours
if i do
oh well... who knows
gudnyt unveiled
its me sweetness

Tuesday, July 7

songs about jane...jain, zain and bain


in true sleepless fashion i did not sleep till 6 this morning
i woke up past noon
well past noon
its 9pm now
i intend to sleep by 11pm
i must!
cos i have a class early tomorrow
and frankly this bad sleeping habit cannot continue
so help me God

i watched good old 'an affair to remember'
i love old movies
and i love that a little above average
i listened to all the maroon five albums i own
all of them while cleaning my room
if i was a boy, am sure i would sound like them lol

ohh am in a much better mood today
i got a call from a security service
my bus pass is back
bless :)

Do you remember
The way we used to melt
Do you remember how it felt
When I touched you
Oh cause I remember very well
And how long has it been
Since someone you let in
Has given what I gave to you


on the brighter side... am taking part in another play
just with a different cast
its so silly...
now i have your attention dont i
and all i could think was are you kidding me?
funny enough it was around this time last year
So you better turn your head and run
And don't look back
Cause I fear
There is nothing left to say
To you
you are becoming too tangled in your own self

am just gonna pick out what i will be wearing tomorrow
its gonna be cloudy tomorrow...
i should get back to my books
sweetdreams unveiled
its me **sweetness**

Monday, July 6

bad day




everything started out perfectly
just perfectly
feeling so happy and looking foward to my day
until my bestfriend JH told me i was supposed to base my information report findings on just one company

rewind to 11:45pm last nyt
on the phone

"hey JH hows it goin?"
"hey sweetness, i called earlier but your cousin said u were sleeping"
they always lie to him
"aah um... am awake now"
"so have you finished you information report?"
"yeah! have you?"
"no, how many companies did u do"
"one... you?"
"three, u are supposed to do three..."
"What? i thought we were supposed to form a group of three people and pick one company for our presentation..."
"no, you are going to pick one out of nine... each person is supposed to do a research on three"
and so i did

and now he just said 9 out of my 14 paged well typed out report were no longer needed
are you kidding me?
*breathe in... whoosaaaah*

my automation test was wonderful except for the last question which i totally screwed up, so much that it hurts just thinking about it
Then i went to my last class 4 minutes late and there was a surprise 5 minute quiz, i was barely on number 3 when we were stopped
never in my life have i submitted a quiz/exam/assignment with less than 80% complete
jeez

Just when i thought it couldnt get any worse
after class i reached for my bus pass in my wallet
lo and behold, there was no bus pass
it must have dropped somewhere
and its just the beginning of the month


i dont even wanna think right now cos my migraines sneeking in already

uuurgh!!!

insomniac


so according to my wall clock, its 4:28am
everyones sleeping, well since am not someone who whines about her insomnia, i did a great deal of internet surfing
since i was gonna be awake again, i'd better enjoy being awake
i just finished watching high school musical
and i loved it
i studied some more, i curled my hair
i picked out a dress for my accounting class by 8am
i was gonna wear blue jeans, a blue tank top and this lovely white top i got for my birthday and my white sandals, but after looking at the forecast i decided to wear my pink summer dress...

as soon as its 5am, am gonna say my prayers then take my bath, jeez everyone will think am weird, like seriously, who takes a a bath at 5am?
oh well
before HSM, i was watching old music videos,mya, nelly, murder inc, jennifer lopez, aaliyah, damn i love aaliyah so much, i used to want to look like her she was so close to perfect... so beautiful
which of cos got me wondering
...
jay zee and aali actually looked good when they were together
but i love bee with jay zee

i read about this ghanian movie on a blog, picture perfect
i googled it and it looks good
am gonna watch it tomorrow night
aah i was watching shayne ward jay holiday and jay sean (again)
i love jay sean
you cant blame me, i love indians


Beep Beep! oh look now there goes my phone
And once again im just hopin it's a text from you..hmm..
It aint right read ya messages twice, thrice
Four times a night its true
Everyday I patiently wait
Feelin like a fool but I do, anyway
Nothing can feel as sweet and as real
As knowing I wasn't waiting in vain..
maybe its true
I'm caught up on you
Maybe there's a chance that ur stuck on me too
maybe i'm wrong
It's all in my head
Maybe We're Afraid of Words We Both Hadnt Said

hmm i love

okay so
i said i will go to the gym later on
i still intend to
i already packed my gym clothes
and tabs for my migraine

while i couldnt sleep i was just thinking
of my GPA for this semester
it had better be high!!! lol

hokaay!
its getting bright... its 3 minutes to 5
gotta jump into that shower
and get ready for class
have a good day unveiled
its me sweetness
xx

Sunday, July 5

School tomorrow



And i left twitter. bless!
I just finished my assignments
can u imagine, i had since tuesday free
and i still feel like my little friend up there
playfully lazzzzy (aint she cute?)

my bad sleeping habits
for some reason, i dont sleep, or get the inspiration to sleep
until i see the glorious sun rays shinning brightly through my room window
then i pull the covers and sleep till well past mid day
this disgustingly lazy but refreshing habit has been going on for four days now
its time to break it. thank you very much :-)

the gym. yes the gym. the gym
hmmm, i did not smell that gym all through this break
quite sad
NOT!
i'll continue this week
i promise ma self, this week!

i have a test tomorrow... and yeah i studied
i want to watch the time traveller's wife
why?
because i loved the notebook

aywaiz, i really should go to bed now
see u later, unveiled
its me sweetness
xoxo

Thursday, July 2

no longer at ease


so.. its like this
i come to blogsville everyday
i type a long post... but cant publish it
i have like seven drafts now
because am doing it again, holding back
*when you are so used to keeping everything in, sharing becomes... a sin*
sick huh? i know

okay i intend to cast out any spirit of da old me in me
and give way to the reborn and unveiled me
umm first things first, i have officially left facebook.
i was just reading some stupid status updates, seeing some annoying people i just snapped! before i could think of it ( and i always think before acting)
i just deactivated my account.
then there was this cool air around me, i was no longer suffocating. i felt happy
(and not connected to some stupid twats)

but then i realized that i'll miss the good people on facebook
my friends from my former school (at least there is messenger)
and the new friends i made...
i seriously apologize for the rude exit no warning or anything of the sort...
i was on the verge of shooting a virtual gun
There is this thing i badly wanna talk about but ill be giving too much away
its been on ma mind for so long... like a wound that wont stop bleeding

i said i was gonna talk about UB
UB is the guy i shud have been married to seven days ago
yeah on our birthday haha JOKES JOKES
i met UB when i was 17... on hi5 (does anyone go to that stalker pit anymore???)
lol.
i got a friend request and as i was going through his profile we had da same birthday, i never knew anyone who had the same birthday as me (so... yeah i know i share my birthday with millions of people in the world, i just did not know them)
funny cos now i know a lot of my birthday mates
did i mention that UB was fiiiine?
okay he was fine
so... the usual hi5 messages
i lived my life on the net back then (i still do)
and so did he... when i was sure he was perfectly harmless, we exchanged yahoo ids and we were always chatting

months later, we exchanged phone numbers
and one evening i was in my room in the dorm, my sony erricson started ringing (bless that fone it was my first camera fone, to the envy of my friends :p)and i picked
it was him
wow. nice voice, i mean he did not sound like... UB
he sounded super cool, we talked for a long while about everything and nothing
and i told him i had to go pray because i was going to class to read with my friends
i called him mate
as per birthday mate
he called me mate
as per soulmate

we were always talking.
i knew his friends, he knew mine, i told him everything, even if he tripped on something he would call and be like "mate, i almost fell"
we were best of friends until he asked me out
I did not have a boyfriend but my usual excuse then was 'i have a boyfriend'
so we continued as friends
He lived in Lagos by the way, he told me all about his life, the girls, parties(i dont party so i like people that party), he was a shy guy somehow (like all fulanis are- yes, he's fulani) but he had the whole Lagos aura, i used to tell him about the guys that bugged me, the ones i thot were cute, the ones that were asking me out, all that.
Even my first boyfriend, Lmao
i used to tell my bestfriend about everything, our fights, our beefs, funny things, and he would tell me how some girl pissed him off blah blah blah
until when i turned 19 and me and my boyfriend broke up, he had been single then for a while
He said the person he loved was in love with someone else. me
then he asked me out. again
no hold it people. he was not my rebound guy
i thought about it for a while
and said yes.
so now like the movies, my bestfriend was my soulmate
sweet right?
for a while
there is an unwritten rule that two cancerians should not be in a relationship
we had the same issues
He had a temper, i never tolerated most things
He was jealous, i was quick to judge
but he would apologize... and so would i
but
we
were
always
fighting!
lol
it was hilarious

oh and we kinda look alike
same fulani nose, his is just a longer version of me
am a bit lighter than him
soft spoken, funny like me. prone to mood swings like me.
so i guess we should have just stayed best friends
ohh did i mention that all this while i had never seen him in person
it was an online relationship

and the picture above...
hmm people always tell me i look like her
this chic (i have never watched any of her films, but they made me google her)
i beg to differ
infact i dont see the resemblance
but a week ago, i posted her picture on facebook and everybody kept on commenting
"wow sweetness u look gud, have u added weight?"
and i was like huh?
r u kidding me


*BSNC*
in one of ur replies to my post u asked which celeb i look like
there she is, monique coleman, they say she's in high school musical, even as a teenager i did not watch that... i used to have the songs on my music player because i liked them and we sang breaking free for my high school grad

anyway i keep loving blogsville more and more
ohh i love sean kingstons fire burning... and hova's d.o.a

much love
*sweetness*