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Falling leaves

2011-10-06T22:02:00.000-05:00

Disclaimer: Try to ignore the many random voices in my head reflected in the blog post

Yeah, I didn't go through with the 30 day challenge. What does that say about me?
not that your opinion matters.
Its October, (yeah genius, like nobody knew that) and its Autumn (really, are you really doing this?) and the first sight that greets me when I step out of my house is (not a half naked, balding potbellied neighbor putting up Halloween decorations, thank heavens, NOT that) brown-ness. Yes you heard me. Brown-ness. All the green leaves that gave outdoor that summer picturesqueness (and I don't care if that word was used in proper grammatical sense) look, lay on the floor. Brown. Dead and Dry
Back to my neighbor, I kid you not, he already has Halloween skeletons and bloodied ghosts hanging in his driveway (why should a ghost be drenched in blood anyway? Aren't they translucent and transparent?)
Anyway.
Brown. Dead and Dry.
That just makes me sad for absolutely no reason at all, don't even let me get started on how cranky I am.
Listening to Olu Maintain's Nawti and sipping orange juice in a wine glass, cos ~~I am badass~~ that's how I roll.

Any non alcohol drinker who sips juice in wine glasses? I'm talking about slow sips, twirling and sniffing like you are at a Sommelier wine tasting party? No?
Yeah me neither. I don't even know where that came from *looks away*
Juice break
12 minutes and a phone call later
Yes! I am back, and in a much better mood I must add.
To prove my point and to observe normal blogging protocol, I am going to put a picture that absolutely has no correlation to whatever the blog post is about

That's right.
My friend has been missing for a few days now. She suddenly disappeared off twitter, facebook, of course I didn't realize all these, until she disappeared off bbm. Like she literally just disappeared off my bbm contact list, then I realized she had deactivated her twitter AND facebook accounts (smart girl! i've always wanted to disappear like this too)
And then it hit me. Like Chris did RiRi, it hit me (Omg Sweetness, how low could you get? Really? Chris? RiRi? that was just so uncalled for, jeez)
Yeah, then it dawned on me, that I didn't know anything personal about this acquaintance of mine. Like of course, we talk about men, our jobs, places, movies all the time, but that was it. I knew she was a Sales Rep for some firm downtown, she went to the same college as me, she has a boyfriend she is having slight issues with, an ex who's proposal she was actually considering... I mean I knew the most intimate details of her life, yet we never bothered exchanging addresses, the Starbucks close to Ottawa University was such a convenient meeting spot. We don't have each other's phone numbers (why call when there's social networking right?) I don't know any member of her family or her friends and she doesn't know anybody on my side. We don't even have mutual friends on Facebook!
And the last I heard from her was
''I told him its ova... he is as crazy as f*ck. He hit me!!!''

That was 13 days ago, I shouldn't be worried right?
Especially since I know she's one to take spontaneous unplanned road trips out of town, or head to Las Vegas for a week... Her surname on Facebook is 'Amour' like: Real name Amour. Right
That's like calling myself sweetness on Facebook, my point is I dont even know her full name

Which leads me to the question, How many SNF's have you got? Social Networking Friends. You met online on blogger or twitter, after a few weeks comments, posts, tweets and retweets strengthened the bond. A month later Bbm pins, yahoo, MSN chat rooms made keeping in touch easier (Speaking of which, does anyone actually use yahoo messenger anymore?) Skype on weekends completed the symphony. But if all of these Social networking platforms were to be taken away from you, that friendship would disappear along with it.
How many? Do let me know in the comment section, as I proceed to get mailing addresses and home phone numbers of my SNFs. I kid, I kid!
Or am I?

But really no body sips apple juice in a wine glass???
Its been real guys! Have an awesome weekend! x

Still going to publish the post anyway, even though editing the 1st part where I was ranting seems like a very good idea. Ah! but oh well

30 day challenge

2011-08-14T20:41:00.001-05:00

Will start tomorrow, for lack of anything else to blog about....

Things I find...

2011-04-06T10:44:00.002-05:00

Another special one for my Shuga lovers

I have been so busy with life... Some interesting things popping up here and there

Social networking is slowly losing its grasp on me...

My love for finding (Go figure) hasn't stopped

Guess what Sweettnesss found?

Intersexions

and I am hooked. If you loved Shuga, you will love Intersexions

Its South African and very relevant

I can never stress this enough

Very relevant

Link 1

I am not gonna put the video on my blog but the link is right there if you wanna watch

Intersexions: It's not about who you sleep with, it's about who they've slept with...

Remember your ABCs

xoxo

Sweetness

Disappointed or in awe?

2011-03-04T12:41:00.008-06:00

I was barely six when i watched 'Yeh vaada raha' for the first time, i probably even didn't know how to pronounce the full name ( I have watched it over 30 times now and personally I thought it was the best Indian story ever made)

Then i grew older...

I was 15 or 16 when I read Danielle Steele's book The promise

After about 80 pages, i could predict how it was gonna end, it all seemed a bit too familiar. Rich guy, Poor girl. Necklace, Promise to be together forever...
skip more pages, Wicked mother in-law, elopement, accident!!! (With a truck full of BRICKS and Iron Rods) ah, it was too much to handle!

I dropped the book

I was shattered, disappointed that one of the most intriguing Indian movies was a rip off

Was i really shattered?

Or in awe? I guess a bit of both emotions

Well, needless to say i continued reading

And oh yes, nothing was changed

The reconstructive surgery and Karma, yup it all followed!

As you all know, I am a sucker for old romantic movies, i feel like its Christmas when I find an old movie I have never watched, in black and white? Better!

So i stumbled on The Promise, randomly

I say randomly because i wasn't looking for it, i literally 'stumbled' on a box of old movies in the basement

And i picked out The Promise starring Kathleen Quinlan Stephen Collins, Beatrice Straight , cos it was the only one i haven't seen

I didn't do the usual research I normally do before i watch a movie: reviews, star ratings, etc

(i do this cos if its not worth watching, i don't bother, too many other worthwhile things to do)

Weellll, if only i did, i might have known that it was actually an adaptation of Danielle Steele's The Promise

Oh Joy!

My day was MADE, it is such a beautiful movie for a 1979 movie, Yeh Vaada raha was made in 1982 by the way ( Imagine! Years before my parents even met LOL)

I'm ashamed to admit that i have watched it more than once

It has one of the best lines ever 'It's good that you can see your money was well spent' Go figure
THEN

I found out that there is an ASIAN adaptation!!!!

Jeez! Its also called The Promise

and err... a Spanish version Uma Promessa (When I found it, I realized its only a sub-dubbed version - but still!)

Talk about most repeated story ever. I am patiently waiting for a Nollywood version
Okay I am kidding, calm down!

Just in-case you never read the book, or heard of the story, there's a little summary for you. Enjoy!
'It's good that you can see your money was well spent'
Oh and Yeh Vaada raha means, 'This is my promise'
Random pictures from the Indian version


The evil mother


before the accident

before the final surgery

Her new face

Girls

2011-02-28T21:39:00.000-06:00

Random....

2011-02-14T16:47:00.000-06:00

I really love the MJ one. #Deep

Now this is a very relevant picture. Verbal abuse hurts as much as physical abuse

On a lighter note...

Haunting eyes

2011-02-10T06:38:00.000-06:00

She has beautiful eyes yes?
I can't remember the first time i saw this picture (the one on the left)
But i know i liked it well enough to want to know more
In 1984 photographer Steve McCurry took a picture of a 12-year-old Afghan refugee in a camp on the Afghanistan-Pakistan border.
Her image (left)—first published on the cover of a 1985 National Geographic—became a symbol of the plight of refugees. It became the most used picture used for Afghan female refugees

I know i've seen her picture about a hundred times on blogs, websites and all of that
For 17 years the photographer tried to find the mystery “Afghan girl” again.

In 2002 he succeeded—and again captured her on film (right)

She looks older than 29 to me in the 2nd pic....
Anyways
He remembered her eyes...
And she remembered the photographer
So she must be the one right? Right

I am lazy right now, that should explain my half baked post ::)

#CurrentListen: Maroon5- Never gonna leave this bed

My Proposal

2010-12-10T18:17:00.000-06:00

11:59pm

Sunday evening

The man of my dreams just asked me to marry him

I have fantasized about this since i discovered Harlequin romance - no scratch that, somewhere in between Disney movies.

It was supposed to be like this.
I never wanted the whole extravagant, ballroom set, decorations up, orchestra playing in the background-kinda proposal
In fact it bordered very close to stupidity as far as i was concerned
I wanted something private, very intimate
Probably my birthday, at my favourite restaurant. Right after dessert
My very own Prince Charming looks at me, and with all the love he can muster at the marvelous sight in front of him, goes down on one knee and surprises me by saying
‘’will you marry me’’

Earth-to-Zaara

But here i was, at 11:59pm, this fateful Sunday evening, in the living room of the 3 bedroom apartment i share with my two best friends

I was wearing a white knee length house-robe over my pink La senza nightie, hair loosely held back with a black scrunchy in my oversized but sinfully confortable brown moc slippers – with a shocked expression on my face

He said ‘’Lets just do it’’

PAUSE

Not much of a proposal there

Silence

Not the way i had dreamed . Yet It felt so unreal, i felt the room spinning around me. I held on to the doorknob for support, took a deep breathe, turned around and looked at the hunk of gorgeousness before me. Kamal. My Kamal

“Zaara, lets just do it’’

WOW

Okay Rewind to 10 minutes before now

I paused the episode of Modern Family to pick up my phone

9ice and Psquare All the way

It was Kamal. Weird because i spent the whole day at his place, he never mentioned coming over
he wasn’t supposed to be here until tomorrow

‘’helloooow kamaaal na, yane?’’ i always emphasized on the maaal part

‘’Lafiya lau Zee, where you at?”

I could hear Oleku Iceprince ft Brymo playing in the background, i could swear that was the song playing in his car when he dropped me at my place 2 hours ago. He sounded like Hershey's: chocolatey husky and sexy. I giggled

I could talk to this man on the phone forever

‘’Im at home wallahi’’ i took another scoop of the Ben and Jerry’s caramel delight i had in front of me.

I really should stop this late night indulgence, its becoming a habit. And it all ends up in my ass. Not a good look

‘’Im in front of your house – let me in’’

‘’Whaat?’’ I almost coughed out the last mouthful of ice cream i had in my mouth standing up and dropping the remote and my music player to the floor as i did. I didn’t pick them up, i ran to the window and peeked. Yup. There he was

Wearing a brown turtleneck polo sweater and black pants. His blackberry pressed against his ears. He smiled when he saw me peeking through the drapes. My heart did a somersault as i said ‘’okay one minute’’ and hung up

I pulled the drapes, checked my reflection on the mirror app on my phone, aargh i look like a mess

Thank God for the soft lightening in the living room

I looked at the clock. 11:50pm

Hmm... 'My mama said' bells started ringing in my head

What is this man doing in my house at midnight?

Okay. Confession

I wasn’t completely honest in the first paragraph

When i said ‘my Kamal’
Okay really, its like this

Phew. God, explaining this will be hard

Okay technically

Kamal isn’t mine. He is not my boyfriend – he is actually my friend.

Did i like him?

Hell Yes. Since the first time i saw him. At a Hospitality conference at the Chateau Frantnec in Montreal
It was during the refreshment break, i was having a conversation with an old employer Gus, when this absolutely good looking brother came over to say hi to him, and Gus introduced us and fortunately or unfortunately (now thinking in retrospect) saw a couple and left us.
During our 20 minute conversation, i had a polite smile plastered to my face and intermittently glanced around casually surveying the rest of the meeting room acting totally uninterested at the 6 feet man that stood 4 feet away from me.
But my oh my. Never in my life have i ever seen a man who actually made me take a second glance. And a third.
He had this aura of self confidence that just made him look even better he did at first glance
We spoke on a vast range of things, The weather, The meeting, Gus, Politics, The Sheraton's much publicized merge with The Four seasons...
His voice was deep and brooding, with a baritone that made the words glide in such an effortless and intelligent way,.
Never underestimate the power of meaningful face to face interactions.

Did he like me? Well...

Of course he did. What were the odds of meeting someone you had so much in common with

One German parent and one Nigerian Parent

Both of us haven’t been to Nigeria in the last 10 years, we both worked for as Accountants for Canadian Hotels. He worked at The Westway and i worked at the Marriott . Both of us have been in Ottawa since 2006

Well not everyday

Kamal and I became the best of friends over the summer - couldn't believe we hadn't run into each other in our own city until we were in another and we found out we had more than just Hausa, German and French in common

We actually went to the same primary school in Kaduna, Turkish International, well he graduated before me.

We were both allergic to sea food, had quit smoking two years before and we were both left handed

We both own complete seasons of The Cosby show and he even watched Def jam poetry!

So how could he not love me? Right?

Right

Well Kamal was in a live in relationship with someone he really loved, someone i met about 3 months after our initial meeting.

Martin

****

3 months after 1st our meeting
I could swear that Kamal had double personality problems

Sometimes when i was in the middle of telling him something really important, he'd be lost in thought

Sometimes i could swear he wanted to ask me something very important, or tell me something really important

but he always changed his mind right before he opened his mouth

Finally he got the courage to tell me

No to ask me

We were at the Coliseum movie theater, it was a cold day in December

We had just watched Avatar, i was still going on about how i wanted to go to Pandora... and predicting that Avatar was going to be the Oscar movie that year. He was helping me into my Jacket. He seemed lost in thought.
Then all of a sudden he said

''I have something to show you'' I adjusted my veil and looked up at him, He looked serious

''What?" I asked, i was getting uncomfortably suspicious. He pulled out his phone and started scrolling through

And my wild thoughts scrolled through my mind

Oh my God.

He is married

He has a kid

He's an unmarried father

Calm down Calm down Zaara. Be positive

Maybe he just wants to show you, a picture of a ring

Err... maybe not

its too early for that

we are not even going out

I mean, he hasnt asked you out, or anything. You guys just spend all your free time together. He is always at your place all weekends, you watch movies together. He takes you grocery shopping. You have a box of old items in his basement cos you dont have space at your place....

You call him everyday. He calls you everyday

That doesnt mean you guys are a couple

Maybe... he's gonna ask you out

Or maybe not

"This'' He said. He handed me his phone

It was a picture

Of a guy

Oh my God. He has a child!

A boy

But wait, his child is white?

His child was shirtless, and he had a hairy chest

Wait a minute. This is no child. This is a Man

A man in his early 30s

One fine looking blond, Blue eyes, nice abs, greater smile

Wait!

Was Kamal trying to hook me up with someone what the hell?

Infact i should slap....

''That. is Martin my boyfriend. He wants to meet you''

***

Back at Chestnut Drive. Apartment 2506, Later that day

''i still cannot believe this'' Grace, my close friend and house mate. She has been looking at me the past hour like she was expecting me to burst in flames and turn to ashes "Pomaa did you ever, even by mistake suspect that Kamal was gay''

''At all'' Pomaa answerd. Pomaa and I went to the University together ''remember when we used to say you were very lucky , he had eyes for only you...''

''...i know ehn. we were even calling him perfect gentleman cos she was like he never tried any move on her'' Grace completed the statement for her

Exactly. I was still wearing what i wore to the movie, sitting on the sofa with my two best friends.

The smell of kenke and shitoh filled the room, they were about having dinner, when i came in. The food lay unattended before us

''Oh my God, Zee and you broke up with Sadeeq because of this guy!'' Pomaa said, as if she was reading my thoughts

"It wasn't because of Kamal, you this Pomaa sef, as if you didnt know they were having problems even before Kamal came into the picture'' Grace answered angrily
They started arguing and stating facts. I was not paying attention
I was on another realm entirely

Sadeeq. I didn't even want to think of that. I threw a relationship of 3 years away simply because i didn't want to be 'tied down'

In other words, i didn't want to be the cheating partner, i wanted everything between me and Kamal to start with honesty

Given me and Sadeeq had our problems.
Cheat on me once, shame on you. Cheat twice, shame on me
I had to end it

And honestly, as soon as Kamal and I started spending time together, Everyone just seemed... irrelevant

So indirectly it was because of him

Oh ya salaam!

Zarah Kabir! Na you be this?

***

If you think the series of unfortunate events you just read made me delete Kamal from my life,
you thought wrong. I dont know how it happened but we became closer friends.
Maybe it was because Kamal was totally oblivious of the fact that he had broken my heart. He did not have the slightest idea that i actually felt something for him.
It surprised me. How could he not know that i liked him. Well apparently gay guys dont notice it when girls throw these subtle hints, not that i was much of a hint thrower myself.
                 The first time i met Martin was at a dinner party me and Pomaa were having for Grace, right after New year, they had just come back from a romantic weekend get away in New-York.
Apparently Kamal had told him so much about me, how i was like the sister he never had, how he is himself around me. Ha! if only he knew. In the beginning i wasn't exactly honest when i said, 'nice to meet you' Hell i disliked him, he looked like someone Straight out of a Calvin Klein ad. The picture did him no justice, He was like Greek god, if there were blond ones. And such a gentleman.
For the first time in my life
I understood defeat
There was no competing here.
Envy was new to me, and i was slowly embracing it. It was an ugly feeling. I have never wanted something i couldn't have. Never. Things fell in place for me, Always. Except this one time
Me and Martin finally got to talk, He was so open, and really funny. He was really excited about meeting someone from Kamals side, everyone in his family knew Kamal and they liked him
So that was how Kamal saw me - Family. Great! This is worse than heartbreak
I can't really tell when my walls of anger and envy started falling down, but they did. Gradually
Martin and Kamal became regular faces around our place.
They were opposite of all the stereotypes about gay couples, they acted more like buddies around us.
What baffled Grace and Pomaa was the fact that me and Martin clicked like peanut butter and Jelly.
Which was why his death was a big blow to me

                                          ***
       Kamal. How do i even start. In simple english Kamal was not en-route to recovery. He was not even trying to
We all tried to be there for him. But i knew Kamal well enough to know that he wasn't going to get over the love of his life like that, especially since he blamed himself for driving the car that took Martin's life.
It was a very ugly accident
Martin died on the spot Kamal escaped with multiple fractures and a ruptured spleen. It was a terrible period
His parents came to North America to see him
That was when Kamal asked me for a favor
He needed me to lie along with him, he told his parents i was his girlfriend

***
"What?! Kamal how could you? i can't lie to your parents haba'' I was shocked
He winced, maybe from my words, or the pain that went through his body as he tried to sit up
I think it was both.
I moved closer to help him sit up, placing the pillows behind him. I felt a migraine creeping in
''Zee, please, i beg you, they will only be around for a few days...'' He winced with every word. It hurt to see him like this
''Kamal but why should we lie? You can just say i'm your friend, we are like family now...''
''Zee, they have been asking me about my fiancee for a while now, sometime back i told them they would meet her whenever they came over... ''
''Kai ina, No way, Kamal i have a bad feeling about this. Kamal just tell them the truth'' I stopped
He shot me a dark look, bowed his head and sighed. What was even thinking? I asked myself, was i even thinking at all. How could i even suggest that he come clean to his parents.
God forbid! that would send his mom to her grave.
Suddenly my whole outlook/bother line nonchalance acceptance to gay and lesbian relationships seemed like something from my previous life
Reality was here. Knocking at our door
Kamal's parents were coming in a few hours.
They were bringing all that we know with them, all that we've been brought up with. Tradition. Religion. Culture. A reminder
A Knowing
Gay relationships are not even acknowledged talk more about accepted
That's an ultimate death sentence. A big disgrace to the family.
An unspeakable shame
How could we forget? When did we forget?
Living a lie. Literally. Accepting it. Embracing it
It was a whole hour before any of us spoke again
"Zee who else can do this for me? No one except you''
No one

                       ***

A week after Kamal was discharged from the hospital, his parents were returning to Nigeria
It was the most unsettled period of my life.
Ladies, want to lose weight fast? Skip the gym, throw out the pills.
Try living a lie
Like literally breathing lies. speaking in lies. Smiling a lie. Laughing a lie
It started with removing Martins pictures from their shared apartment. It was stress. Everyone thought i lost so much weight because of the whole incident
It was solely because i was lying to two loving people who took me like their daughter
They ended all their sentences with a prayer and a blessing
God i was bleeding inside.
Somehow without words, Kamal understood the torture i was going through. As soon as we were left alone. He'd start telling me it was almost over.
I almost broke down when we took them to the airport
The prayers never ended, The wedding plans started getting mentioned.
The plan was that Kamal was going to call his parents a few weeks after they got to Nigeria to tell them that we had broken up due to some irreconcilable differences
Lie upon lie
We told more lies to keep up with the last.
Conveniently skipping the truth.
Not once was Martins name mentioned.

                  ***

Kamal went to Nigeria for the first time in 10 years that summer.
For some reason he had postponed the 'breakup phonecall' to his mum
I just needed him to hurry up and lift the weight from my shoulders
He felt it was going to be better if he told them in person and since he was going for his younger sister's wedding
this was the right time.
When Kamal came back, we had a little welcome back party for him.
I left a little early, told everyone at the party it was the end of the hotel season and i had accounts to close, which were due the following week
Honestly i just needed to get away
I had episodes of Modern Family i wanted to catch up on
Not to mention my insatiable icecream craving

                    ***

PRESENT TIME, PRESENT DAY

''What are you talking about Kamal?" I was surprised at how calm my voice sounded
I was a wreck of a billion nerves standing infront of him
2010 is my year of Shockers.
I leaned back against the door, He came closer and took my hand in his
''Think about it this way, all we told my parents wouldn't be a lie. You've always talked about how marriage should be based more on Friendship than love. Zee, you are my best friend, we don't have secrets, We can really make this work'' He looked so happy, like he had just found the cure for breast cancer
I took my hands away from his. Okay this guy is going mad, I glanced at my phone. 911 is on my speed dial number 2
'' it still doesn't change anything'' I gave him a knowing look
He looked at me puzzled, as if he was asking what i was talking about
''You are gay, how can we get married? Just listen to yourself"
''Zee, Pomaa told me - she told me everything'' He was not joking
Pomaa! way to go girl, way to go
''She what? look Kamal, that was a long time ago, before i knew about you and Martin, besides what makes you think i want to spend the rest of my life with a gay guy anyway?!''
He went pale
His face went through a few transformations. Shock. Hurt. Anger. Disappointment
Umm... Okay maybe i shouldn't have said the last part
Or maybe it needed to be said
I was suddenly scared. He looked like a stranger. I have never seen this side of Kamal. I put my hands on my chest.
Silence
He walked to the door
He stopped
My heart was thumping
He opened the door, and walked out
The door closed with a bang
without thinking, i rushed to it and locked it

I looked at the clock
12:14am
I am not sure about a few things that happened this year
but i am sure of this one
I just lost a friend. Forever

''Same-sex sexual activity in Nigeria is illegal according to Chapter 21, Articles 214 and 217 of the Nigerian penal code and can be punished by imprisonment of up to 14 years throughout Nigeria

Truth is the number of Homosexuals in Nigeria is on the increase, irrespective of age, tribe or marital status

Public hostility to homosexual relations is widespread. Very few gays are out.

A lot of Homosexual men in Nigeria and abroad still go into heterosexual relationships and start families''

Culled from wiki

DISCLAIMER

Yes oh. I don't care what you feel, hear or conclude, based on my tweets or just the story

This is a complete work of fiction!!!

I didnt want 2010 to end without posting another blogpost. So i made this up

In just a day :)

Tell me what you think guys!!

Giveme50

2010-09-26T16:08:00.000-05:00

So, after classes and work the other day
Innovative miss Jae had a message for me
To cut the long story short
She has an idea. Nigeria #giveme50!

The INTIATIVE...

...is very simple. A campaign geared towards mobilizing Nigerians both at home and in diaspora to speak up on changes we would like to see in the near future

I want to come back home -
Join the movement..
giveme50nigeria.com via

Follow on twitter @naijagiveme50

From Korea with love

2010-07-12T23:10:00.000-05:00

Whoever knows me knows that among the many many random things i do, i enjoy watching korean music videos. Yes you heard right. K.o.r.e.a.n.

...with translations of course, plus theres a little bit of english here and there.
And of course Korean movies, yes movies (they have very good ones, infact a lot of hollywood movies ARE adaptations of Korean movies, not the other way round!)
One movie i liked was A frozen flower.

Frozen Flower is the first movie with a homosexual couple i actually watched to the end (or third - depending on what you call couple) - and it was nice. I mean, i actually enjoyed it.
on totally different issues

I watched Checkmate, the ghanaian movie, from the producers of perfect picture. Its a nice movie too
And i have myself in too deep with poetry.

Okay! So back to todays post
I'm just gonna do a mini- review of the movie for bloggers who havent seen it and for bloggers who dont watch korean stuff :)

So the movie opens with the King of Seung Ri in training with a young soilder who would be his chief- of - command, right hand man, personal assistant and all that. They take the same war training classes, music glasses and they become really close friends

They grow up to become two dashing young men with the same hobbies, likes amd all but..

The King has feelings for his bodyguard (and for some reason most people know about this and no one really cares)

The only way for the King to be able to protect his throne is if he has a son through his wife, the Queen. (who knows her husband is having an affair with his bodyguard)

And the king doesnt care, he respects her as his wife the queen, but thats it. His everything is Hong Lim, who is the most loyal of all the guards in the kingdom

As the threats to the kings throne arose, he is forced to send Hong Lim (the bodyguard) to get his wife pregnant *Gasp* *Shocked face*

Of course his bodyguard/lover refused. (out of love... blush blush butterfly eyes)

But needless to say, the king convinced him. And his Queen (Yeah he is a Man, a king, not a girl...)
And the deed was done. More than once actually
FAST FORWARD A BIT
Unfortunately for the King, The queen had fallen in love with the bodyguard and the bodyguard too was confused (Yeah the road to being straight is a long and confusing one people... LOL)
So there came all the telltale signs of a cheat
Creeping out late (FACT: Male cheats are the same, Gay or straight - ha! who would have guessed!)

Never ending lies

And sneeking around... to see the queen of course

~~Unanswered phonecalls~~ (Ok i added that last bit - my bad, i get carried away sometimes)
They started meeting secretly at midnight in the library.

and of course the lies continued....

Their love is so strong that it even led Hong Lim to not follow the King's orders. The King begins to have suspicions of Hong Lim's infidelity.
FAST FORWARD A BIT
After a while, The bodyguard gets guilty and asks the Queen to stay away from him, after which he goes to the King to beg for forgiveness.

Meanwhile, the Queen attempts to kill herself by slitting her wrists but fails. (Girls and blades? WTF?)
The King forgives him after the bodyguard (Hong Lim) says his involvement with the Queen was purely lust.

He decides to overlook everything that had happened and he forgave him, however he decided it was best to send Hong Lim away for a while to have him cool his mind, but they were back to normal, the two lovers (doing things that lovers do, the king didnt notice, but i cant be fooled. Oh yes. i saw the bodyguards loss of interest - yes i did)
However, the night before Hong Lim's departure *drumrolls*

the Queen's personal maid secretly informs him that the Queen wishes to meet him for one last time.

She also bears news that the Queen has finally conceived
So that night Hong Lim sneaks out of the King's bedside to meet the Queen in the.... *Lightning*

yes you guessed right! the usual meeting place. The library.

They end up making love in the library, and the King catches them in act. The two lovers attempt to save the other by begging the King to "kill me instead," and his bodyguard admits that he's in love with the queen. *THUNDER*

In a fit of jealousy, he ordered his guards to have Hong Lim castrated

What happens after this
Was he really castrated? Oh yes... bloody yes!

Did he die?
No, but he wanted to

Did, the queen die, Did she lose the baby? Did true love prevail? Did the King avenge for his *cough* cut weenie? Well maybe you really should watch Frozen flower. Its on Youtube and its subtitled
I could just type out the end, but i really wouldnt do justice to this beautifully tragic movie

Hows everyones week going. Mines pretty fun
Congrats to Spain on winning the WC
Oh my God. That octopus!! still cant believe it
I mean, how could it predict? anyways...

Current Listen: Taeyang - Wedding dress

Much love darlings!
Its me, Sweetness
Muah!

If i were a boy

2010-07-12T21:11:00.000-05:00

I think i cud understand

(this has nothing tod do with the pic)

2010-05-17T01:18:00.000-05:00

Washroom basins from a private gentlemen club

just thought i'd share

Hey blogsville! its been a while (again) I have been busy with work, my exams were alright. Summer holiday is going on just fine, we are just patiently waiting for the sun to come out, so we can have summer fun
Life has been good, generally, as usual i have been stalking blogs and tweeting during all my free time
Lets see, what has changed since the last time i blogged
Thinking aloud

You could be the lover, I'll be the fighter babe
If I'm the blunt, You could be the lighter babe
Fire it up!
Writer babe
You could be the quote
If I'm the lyric baby
You could be the note
Record that!
Saint, I'm a sinner. Prize, I'm a winner
And it's you
What can I do to deserve that
Paper babe, I'll be the pen
Say that I'm the one
Cause you are ten

Even when the sky comes fallin
Even when the sun don't shine
I got faith in you and I
So put your pretty lil hand in mine
Even when were down to the wire babe Even when it's do or die
We can do it babe simple and plain
Cause this love is a sure thing

Thats Miguel Jontel - sure thing

Spread the message, spread the love

2010-04-17T16:36:00.001-05:00

MTV Staying Alive: Ignite launched an innovative campaign to fight HIV/AIDS in developing countries. Kenya’s show ‘Shuga‘, designed to teach people the consequences of different types of behaviors recently launched and it speaks in the language of the local youth.

Scroll down to the music player and press pause, so you can enjoy this short movie

Shuga Episode 1 from mtv staying alive on Vimeo.

Shuga Episode 2 from mtv staying alive on Vimeo.

Shuga Episode 3 from mtv staying alive on Vimeo.

Great performance, wonderful stories
Spread the Message. Not the Virus
Know Status Get Tested
Staying safe is as easy as ABC
A= Abstinence
B= Be Faithful
C= Condoms

Credits : Fashion Junkii, Jamatiiorg

Dear Diary

2010-04-06T23:12:00.002-05:00

Dear Diary
I was a good person today, I did not do anything i wasnt supposed to
I went to work on time
And did not over stay my lunch break
I even poured out old coffee from the coffee maker and started a new one
I did not walk fast around the C-lab, i didnt even talk in the library
I did not pretend not to see some people
I even stopped to say hi
And asked them how they were doing, and i really wanted to know
I completed my assignments myself
I did not copy or paste from anywhere, i did not even have google open
I called a friend whos birthday was today
I did not insult anyone
And i laughed even when my friends started mimicking me, during dinner today
I hope i will snap out of this nice person syndrome
It doesnt even work for me LOL

r-a-n-d-o-m
that black and white pic there
A naked girl, and its not even indecent
#unfaithful
I am moving out of this ~~relation~~ Ship we called a home, love cannot stay here anymore, heard about the two lovers you brought onboard, jealously and deceit.

I want to be a woman who is wealthy with patience because without patience
knowledge is unattainable
without patience, temptations will make you unfaithful
but seriously, ur bullshit, i cannot swallow, am to busy for that

For the kinda woman i am, i want a certain kind of man
A man who understands that love should cost just love
who regards me as his bright sunshine
And he'll be my dark knight

The Reason am blogging today

yes her :-)
Her name is Maryam
And i LOVE her!
I lovingly call her DrAuntyMaryam
Sense of humour: Blog worthy
Talent: Speaks for itself
She has a photoblog you all need to check out
And shes on blogsville too

You can check her photography on
http://www.maryamabdulrazaq.com/
and her blog
http://auntymaryamthethird.blogspot.com/

My real life crush was updated last night!
lets hope it lasts till tomorrow, if it does, thats the longest in years!!

Cheating is not cheating if he respects me enough to hide it...

What do you think of this statement?

Much love
xo

When it rains, it pours...

2010-04-03T13:30:00.001-05:00

I didn't hurt anybody

i am living my life right

Yet its crumbling around me~!

Lol i sound like such a drama queen right?

Believe me i am not. Its an act.

So my bank card got swallowed by the automated money machine
as if that was not enough
My laptop got shattered
It dropped and it broke completely
like dead. finito
i am not even making any noise about it, i refuse to be bothered
am just watching music videos
i even braided my hair, listened to music, read blogs, i have just been trying to be happy cos this is too much for one day.
Anyway what can i do, i am taking it in good faith
just like the saying people in your life are like seasons, everything happens for a reason

"when it rains it pours"
i guess when the unfortunate things happen, they come big

I wonder what high school musical Nigeria will look like, i saw pictures of the cast, there were some cute ones,.. i wonder about the songs, will they all be in english? or will there be a bit of our languages here and there?
How will they dress, hope they dress like normal teenagers?
Normal accents, Barely there make up. I hope

On a totally unrelated issue, I think
Eva Mendes is absolutely gorgeous
Am chatting on bb with my boyfriends ex about my ex lol
shes totally cool though

So here are some pictures that crack me up :

On jobs

whatever happens in life
always remember that you are among the fortunate
and look for more reasons to laugh

Its been two years

Safiya JL

Id give anything to see your face

but i know u are in a better place RIP

current listen: Kirk Franklin- brighter day

Wingless Words

2010-03-18T02:40:00.003-05:00

I love Coldplay, i listen to them a lot

their words speak to me

So many contradictions, making you think in metaphors
they give me, peace-of-mind
they touch the pieces in me

"If you love me, u shud let me go"

go: Move away from what i know

No, thats what i tell myself, because you know i need you

And i love you, i just suck at expressing it

"Am i part of the Cure, or a Part of the disease"

My all time favorite line was from the song Rush of Blood to the Head

"Oh am gonna buy this place and see it burn, take back the things i did to you in return,
said am gonna buy a gun and start a war, if you can tell me something worth fighting for"

Suddenly i dont like that line anymore.

It has lost its meaning to me. It sounds...violent

#EnoughisEnough.

#EndTheViolence

#LightUpNigeria

Theres too much fighting already

On a closely related issue...
Where did all the good girls go?
To a place called Home

A place where girls

are taught to love themselves, and imitate no one,

demand and demonstate respect the minute they walk in that door

To a place called the past

Back when anxiety was as simple as wondering

if Wonder woman would make it out alive

When Failure was as simple as failing Maths

When promises were as simple as Pinky bets
When 'Maybe' was an answer

Or maybe they went to the Future

Where a good man is hard to find

And a hard man is good to find
When Real eyes realize Real lies
Where u only say what you mean

How did we grow up so fast?

Wife of a Pharoah, Mother of a a Slave

Do you know what's worth fighting for? sticks and stones may break your bones
When it's not worth dying for?
if not, then use these words, for they will always teach you

Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?

When you're at the end of the road
And you've lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul
Your faith walks on broken glass
Nothing's ever built to last
~~(damn it thats a bummer, just how did i go wrong?)~~
just remember that you are strong
and if doesnt break you it will only make you funnier
and stronger

Listening to: K'naan - Wavin Flag

No Words, Another Jumble of words :)

2010-03-12T02:46:00.004-06:00

Goodness, i am blogging again, after so long
No words can describe this feeling
It feels new to me. Its been a while
Well naturally am gonna blame it on school and twitter, yes twitter.
putting updates about what am up to every 30 minutes sort of makes blogging... (wait wait... i didn't say unnecessary)it makes blogging hard.
Okay now the real reason. Unveiled. Yeah,sweetness isn't an anonymous blogger anymore, so honestly, i just hold back.

I found interesting pictures (i say interesting due to lack of a better word)or should i call them clip shots from BANNED commercials, am sure i mentioned it sometime last year, i google up banned commercials for lack of anything better to do. lol. but seriously its not a joke
and am gonna be putting up these pictures as i go along, tell me what you think, are they really bad, overly suggestive or distasteful.

Then i came across these

On JOS
No words can bring one poor soul back
Just Prayers.
Prayers for Peace, Understanding, Forgiveness and Humanity

RANDOM

I read eyes

I get withdrawn when i notice the slightest negative energy

I forget easily
I remember names of my teachers from Nursery school
I cant remember what i wore yesterday

I imagine my Funeral just like that
I have 5 scenarios of how i am gonna die
The first one was when i was 11

I dont watch Horror films

I honestly love my mom with every fibre in my being

I act like i dont know somethings just because.
I cry when i see old people that are helpless

I dont trust easily

I have terrible mood swings

I write Random things

I love old movies

My greatest fear is Cancer

I dont know what i'll term as my happiest day

I am addicted to the smell of unwrapped soap
I inhale washing detergent
I believe i get high on it
I cant leave Walmart without going to the detergent section

I make a thousand things up

I listen... to you talk

If you insist that i talk, i can talk about nothing - its a gift

Premarital sex doesnt fit in my historical romance fantasies and real life

I cry when i pray... and he forgives me

I will end up as a vegetarian

A STORY I HAD TO SHARE

" Its gonna be on Visa please"
I can recognize a Nigerian Voice anywhere, its not just the voice its the accent, or maybe how we stress the 'gonna' and 'wanna' in our sentences.
And this particular voice, i knew a little too well, i looked up and of course it was her, looking on point as usual.
" Hi Sandra! " I said, some people have this effect of bringing out my ridiculously cheery alter ego, she was one of the few. That's cos she has this lively and bubbly personality, its almost infectious.
"Hows it going?" i asked, taking her card, newly manicured tips, bright red, like her lips bright red, some girls are blessed with pulling off things like these.
"OMG sweetness!, where have you been?" she gushed, pushing the fringe away from her face, it fell back again, covering her eyes again, she pushed it away one more time.
cute
The smile on her face completely transformed her, the looked younger than her 22 years.
" I have been around, school... work" i said as i collected her card and punched in the amount i gave her back to punch her password
"yeah, same with me", she said, "i haven't seen you since Montreal"
" I know right.. I..."
I suddenly forgot what i wanted to say
I paused
I looked again
Then i saw it.
Lines...
Scars, across her wrists, both wrists.
I stared. dumbfounded.
I've read about this a couple of times, but, someone ~~as happy~~ who looked as happy as her?
Suicidal?
are you kidding me???
She looked up, saw what i was looking at and the smile faded, her eyes shifted, i met her gaze as she tugged her sleeves down.
No words
it wouldnt be enough
No words
The silence said alot
No words
It wasn't an awkward kind of silence, it was a shocked one. You know, the one that suddenly stays in the room with you when you find out something u wish you didn't.
"see you around" or at least thats what i think she mumbled
i watched her walk away, like anyone else
I couldn't find my smile for the rest of the day, i kept wondering
What on Earth could be so bad, that you would try to take your own life
And look how happy everyone thinks she is
Look how happy she makes the people around her
Who would have ever thought...

lets try

2010-03-06T01:14:00.003-06:00

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse.

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above earth or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

AVATARIZE YOURSELF

2010-02-22T18:03:00.001-06:00

Scared...

2010-01-07T00:36:00.003-06:00

School is reopening on Monday.
Today was my friend Nk's birthday
We had dinner at Chances R.. it was awesome
I just heard that a former classmate is dead
The only one person that can hurt you is the one person you give the chance
I'm Scared to try cuz I'm scared to fail

I'm scared to die cuz I'm scared of hell

I'm scared of you cuz I'm scared of me

I'm scared to fly I'm scared to crash

I'm scared of love cuz I'm scared he'll leave

I'm scared to swim cuz I'm scared to sink

I'm scared to learn cuz I'm scared of truth

I'm scared to start cuz I'm scared I'll quit

I'm scared to grow up cuz I'm scared to get old

I'm scared of the dark and being alone

Scared to share a secret cuz I'm scared you'll tell

***
This must be the worst part of falling so deeply in love with someone
Fearing that they will leave
:(

Current Listen: Jazmine Sullivan, Fears

lies... so much lies

2010-01-04T16:56:00.006-06:00

I just finished unpacking
Earlier today i was reading All I want.. again
I am listening to Adam Lambert on TV
Looking at my phone.. hoping it doesnt ring
Not now atleast and thats just because i wanna watch the secret life on the american teenager and its starting in a few minutes
I started following it like a week ago
and i love it already
Happy New Year people!
I was with with my Mom all this while
Bless...
She keeps complaining that i dont eat
And i remembered my last post
***
So my Boo read my blog
all of it
and he said "am never gonna read your bog again"
lol...
Sometimes i think i have the bestest friends one can ever wish for
Its freezing outside, so much
***
There is a disturbing gist i need to share with you guys
This girl from my former school wanted to break up with her boyfriend
Her boyfriend of 4 years, really nice, faithful and smart
Her Reason: Her Dad suggested she gets married to his friends son and she can never 'disobey' her dad
The truth of the matter, she thinks Mr Family friend is richer than her boyfriend even though he is older, afterall all her friends are getting married
Her Problem: She cant break up with him cos her conscience wouldnt let her after all he has been through for her
See this chick talking about conscience when her eye is scopping the BMW wedding gift, honeymoon in Dubai and Switzerland...
So her 'friends' advice her to do a 'ya kopsa'
ya kopsa = he effed up literally
apparently thats a new way of breaking up with people
that only a few nasty ones know about
And its been going on for a while
A totally random girl, probably in the same uni or outside is paid to sleep with him
My mind is thinking somewhere around the line hooker much?
She probably starts hitting on him in the club, class... wherever
The whole process takes about a week
Sometimes it doesnt really get to the sleeping part
somewhere around the kisses and make out session
Miss Girlfriend comes around

and does the whole act
" I cant believe this!!! how could you?!"
Creating a scene, and officially breaking up with him
Leaving the poor guy feeling bad about
'Cheating' on her
or almost cheating on her

How unfair is this? seriously?
So, this case went bad when after weeks of him trying to get back to his girlfriend, apologising while shes recovering from the so called heartbreak enjoying a guilt free shopping spree for her wedding
A friend of hers who felt the guy did not deserve such pain told him the whole story
and even brought the hooker.. sorry other girl to verify the story

...
Hmm life
Very intersting

Hey guys gotta run, The secret life just started
Much love
xoxo

Exams. Done!

2009-12-20T18:56:00.012-06:00

This post represents the official view of the voices in my head

So i wrote my last paper
How can someone be so excited after exams?
i can't explain it myself
I cant even explain how i missed blogging
well actually i lost my Mojo for writing
I have been saying Mojo alot
infact let me find out the Real meaning of Mojo
wait...
Google
Search
M.O.J.O
Enter
The word originally means a charm or a spell. But now its more commonly said meaning sex appeal or talent.

Haha!! Sex apppeal
WRONG
NEXT!!

Your cool/style essence.
Thanks Urban Dictionary
Close

So i basically lost the zeal to write
Y'all know how it is
*******

I typed that three four days ago... can't remember
and i saved it, just remembered it as i was typing todays post
Britanny Murphy is dead. The girl from Clueless, 8 mile, Uptown girls, Love and other disasters

If i was not blogging
Photography will be my hobby
But then again i'll put the pictures online and make a photo blog
so that will still make me a blogger right?

I have been hearing so many good reviews about the movie Avatar
from my friends on facebook, twitter, bb chat and blogsville
I am going to tell you three reasons why i was never never eager to see this movie
1. I am very attracted to good looking people and honestly when watching a movie thats what keeps me going apart from a good storyline. Blue skinned aliens just dont make me tick,
2. they even have tails
3. I was secretly hoping Titanic will be James Camerons best movie

but apparently there is something skin deep and really remarkable about this movie apart from the blue and green tinged skin
*shudders*
And theres a love story, you all know am a sucker for love stories
So am going to watch it next week.

5 days to Chrstmas!
Am gonna say 5 random things that happened to me in 2009
* I fell out of love

* I got my first paycheck

*I grew up, emotionally and mentally

* 2009... Nine years on, and he is forever in my heart. Celebrated yet another birthday without my Dad.

* And i volunteered at an organization called Easter Seals, helped to raise money for kids living with disabilities
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According to a Research 95% of females look at the mirror and see only imperfections
7 out of every 10 women look at the mirror and point 3 body parts they will like to modify
The remaining 3 would like to modify just one body part
Girls around ages 15-19 find faults in their nose
Those around 17-24 feel something is wrong with their arms and stomachs
3 out of every 4 girls believe they will look better if they were slimmer
240 different guys from different continents looked at videos and close up pictures of these girls and thought they were beautiful
56% of these guys believed they were looking at pictures and videos of foreign actresses
98% of the guys could not find any fault in the girls
2% of the guys said three of the girls looked 'insecure' and 'unsure'
None of these girls were models or actresses, they were normal girls who submitted applications for cosmetic surgeries
Dear Reader. You are beautiful.
Yes you are.
_________________________________________
The pic ur about to see is NOT a joke

Current Listen:
Alicia keys: Sleeping with a broken heart
Jay Z: Song cry

Some happy stories have blood on them

2009-12-02T20:44:00.003-06:00

Yes its been 2 weeks since last updated

...
.....
......

exam countdown has started

...
....

I have been coming to blogsville
reading

and commenting
...

and quietly signing out

Listen baby, I don't wanna ruin your plan
If you got a man, try to lose him if you can

I'm patient, but I ain't gonna try

Well, baby it's obvious that I ain't your girl

hmm lets see? recent updates?
none.

crush of the week...
none

blank

am a-la-faithful-mode

pleasures and sins

2012

new moon

projects

I need God in my life
... back in my life
what am i even saying

He never left...
it was me who refused to talk

And i remember this song i used to love

now its like ur talking to me...

He wants to bring you down, he whispers everyday
You started on the path and he led you astray
I know you will come back, you never feel at peace
You're searching for the truth to put your mind at ease
You know you're missing me, I know what you've been through
When we meet again, we have a lot of work to do

the bad habit is back

yes...and i feel better

did noteat much after
so am

(((((((((((safe)))))))))))))

"The ultimate choice for a man, in as much as he is driven to transcend himself, is to create or to destroy, to love or to hate." Erich Fromm

Help blogsville!

2009-11-18T09:21:00.003-06:00

I just got off the fone with my friend from the last post
I missed two of her calls when i was in class
So i called her back
It was not awkward at all
Can u imagine?
It was normal! like the way it used to be
(not that i was expecting anything to change Lol)
I hinted that i mentioned her on my blog
(She knows i have a Blog)
And she was like hope you didnt put my pictures?
My mom reads blogs!
Am like no hell no
Thanks guys for all the advice and stuff

Theres a Christmas party at work
Am looking forward to it
So a colleague was asking if i was coming
I answered in the affirmative
and she was like shes coming with her boyfriend
Hes so shy but really gorgeous
She encourages him to be a stripper
Haha
Thats when i started laughing, she was like for real they will make so much money
and no she wasnt kindding
Shes so awesome!
She keeps me sane at work
NOW THE DILEMMA
Theres Secret Santa going on
We were all signed up
And during lunch today we picked a piece of paper
Each piece had someone's name on it
And you are gonna buy that person a christmas gift
You are not supposed to ask or tell that person
Until at the Christmas party when you give that person their gift
Now heres the problem!
The name on my piece of Paper is Dylan
Fact File
Irish Canadian
Blond
Funny
22/23ish
Lived in Florida all his life
Moved to Canada 3 years ago
WHAT DO I GET HIM???

Another picture...

Have a blessed day y'all
xoxo

Fangs, Fur and Kissing girls

2009-11-16T16:14:00.011-06:00

Its Tuesday
Then Wednesday
Thursday
(((FRIDAYY)))
New Moon
Go team Edward
******************
So apparently some Twitsphere gist blew up in Blogsville
:(
******************
I was chatting with a friend couple of days back
And my bb pic was (is actually)
me and a friend in Quebec
Oh yes people i went to Quebec...
Montebello to be exact,for a field trip
It was awesome
It was on friday the 13th
the oh-so-famous jinxed day
umm... no, we did not make any wrong turn
we did not end up in the middle of nowhere
There was no bloood, or headless horseman, or girl in stained white dress, glassy eyes. No well, No empty well, nobody coming out of an empty well
no nothing
Unfortunately *sigh*
who says a little bit of screaming doesn't spice up everything
anyway!
i digress
The picture i put up was of me and a friend
And the girl i was chatting with said nice pic, i was like Thanks
And i gave her the whole Montebello gist
*Check above for full gist*
Okay!
so she says nice pic
and am like thanx
and she says are you going out?
*silence*
are you going out?
I honestly thought she was saying
Are you going out
as in am I going out
(i was actually going out, for a friends dinner, her birthday dinner,it was fun, Fierce, Esay and the guys were there...)
Oh i digress!
So i said yeah
As in to the question
are you going out
*Check 12 upper lines for clarification*
and she was like nice
u make a lovely couple
umm *raising eyebrows* is this message for me?
I miss my girlfriend
Excuse me??!! say whaaaaat?!
erm... wait am i going out with who?
what? her? the girl in this picture?
Iman?
No i am not going out with her or with any girl for that matter
and what did you say?
Ur gir..gir...girlfriend?
Am sorry i have to say this
But seriously am i the only way who finds a Nigerian admitting to be gay damn awkward??
Am i?
am? i?
didn't think so...

Yeah i know there are Lesbians and Homosexuals in Nigeria
And i seriously think its a free world and all
My best friend is Gay
noo wait, he's Asian
And hes been like that for ages
NO double standard here
But this girl is Nigerian
And i saw her two years ago
She was suffering from yet another heartbreak
from the time i can remember
She has had bad relationships
Bad boyfriends
Terrible boyfriends
But does that justify anything?
Aaah men this is a huge shock
Imagine ur friend telling you this
She sent me a picture of her and her girlfriend
...kissing
Am supposed to be a good friend abi?
After all I am supposed to like her for who she is not what she is
or is it what she is, and not who she is?
Am mega confused here
And am not just gonna throw away 10 years of friendship just because umm... oh well, shes gay and proud
After all Ellen is Gay and i am her number one fan
I would never miss her show if not for work and school
She has a great sense of Humour and she makes me laugh
She had Dakota Fanning (SP?) on her show this afternoon and while she was asking Dakota if she believed in Vampires, she had this guy dressed as a vampire, come and scare Dakota, she screamed, it was hilarious
Aaaah... i digress!!!!
(wont do this again... promise)
anyway that is the gist sha
we havent talked today with her
nooooo... its my battery
loool
People am not that mean!!!

By the way - on a totally unrelated gist
Starbucks have the Christmas blend
Go Coffee!
Go Starbucks!!
Ho Ho Ho!!!
A SERIOUSLY KISSABLE MAN
Now this my dear people
i would rather kiss

Crying is okay here...

2009-11-02T12:15:00.017-06:00

DISCLAIMER
Some THinGs MighT not StRinG
REALLY convoluted THOUGHTS here
IDEAs MIGHt sTop AbrUptlY
PosT wAs NoT EdiTeD
**********************
My phone rings
3:16am
"hello... hello?" "Have you ever hated yourself?
what was going on?"what did you say?"
You heard me
"Have you ever hated yourself... so much, dying was not even worth it?"

"Who am I living for?
Is this my limit?
Can I endure some more?
Chances are giving
Questions existing
I mentioned it twice or thrice in the past
she is more than a sister
shes my bestfriend
everyone in her life
becomes part of my life
her parents
her siblings
her boyfriend..s...

So he calls he and says
i call her, no answer
cuts me off every time im talking
which means she ain’t never hear nothing
i say “stay”, she wanna leave
she up on her car so i gotta be
ima let her be by herself in peace
but five years from now i bet she see
so before he left, she up and bounced out
Singing
them people, they talking
them lights, they on me
this life i chose
but i aint know, til i found it
to be honest, im modest
WHY IS IT SO HARD FOR YOU TO BE FAITHFUL?
I never understood why
until recently
to much strings to the past
the Ex's
**Case of the EX**
After reading Sugarkiings post
I sorta agreed with him, so am saying, We can always remain friends after we break up
No hard feelings
right?
You can send me texts that begin with "do you remember when..."
and end with "... i miss you..." right?
We can meet for drinks saturday afternoons
You can call me to tell me about how fab this girl you are seeing is
right?
I can ask your opinion on what to wear for my Mans surprise party
Hell i can even invite you for the party am throwing for him
afterall we are like best friends now right?
WRONG
An Ex should never be a friend
Coz if there are no hard feelings
there just might be softer feelings lying somewhere
I might just hate the innocent 'fab' girl you are dating
My Man might hate how much time we spend on our saturday afternoon get togethers
Why dont you spend that time with me?
three days ago it was his sisters graduation
He is just my friend!
*Cringe*
And he might make me cancel the party i was gonna throw for him
Until i set my priorities right
How i might call you to cry...
How you might turn up at my door 15 minutes later
at 11:00pm
How our song might start playing on the radio
How your lips might feel so good on mine...after so long

How you might change your relationship status on facebook from in a relationship to its complicated...
Complicated
Thats how my relationship with my man might become
You are different he insists
Am okay...
just issues
as i put my phone on silent
cos you might be calling
How we might be having this argument
2 weeks later
am tired of creeping on the low
what do you suggest? that we tell them?
umm.. i dont think so
i didnt think so
*Fuming*
Back home
He might find out through a friend-of-a-friends-friend
the accusing words might get a bit too harsh
Accusing... but true
where God at? i need to call Him
my knees on the ground, Dear Father
don’t let me break, please make me stronger
how much longer, will it linger?
Its overrr
Its over
over
How every relationship might end in shambles

Just because i kept in touch with you
How did it get from that simple text to this...
. . .

Current Listen: Wale and Rihanna
Can i endure (contemplate)
as highlighted in the post
:D

Crush: / krsh/ a burning desire to be with someone who you find very attractive and extremely special.

2009-10-24T13:51:00.007-05:00

That is urban dictionary's definition
Not your girls'
haba, intori olorun, biko dat is tooo much for a crush now...
Crush: When seeing someone just makes you smile for absolutely no reason, something about the subject usually tickles your fancy, could be their eyes, that persons smile, or how that person sends you 'miss you *smiley face*' every ten minutes
Can last for 1- 2 weeks
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Earlier in life, i never owned up to having a crush
Even if my pupils turned to little red hearts every time he looks my way
i just denied it to everyone
my friends, my diary and even myself
Until months later, i look at the guy
and go, did i like him, sometime back... or not?
LOL
I still remember my earliest crushes
When i was in primary school, Sometime in primary 2 it was this guy, his name was Daniel, we used to sit together in front of the class (translates into: we were the shortest kids in our class) he never used to push me or other girls off the swing, he used to play 'ringa ringa roses' with me, and he used to share my lunch :)
I don't even know where on earth he is.. i should look for him on facebook
Years later it was Tahj from Sister sister

I have to say that after this point
most of my crushes lived far from me...
In this beautiful world called TV
Junior secondary it was j boog from B2k, now he has two kids!
anyway this is a picture of him i love

(i never used to look at Omarion then)
Senior secondary it was Bow wow
Bow wow for a long time
Especially all that period of like you
that was my song!
In medical school it became Patrick Dempsey from Greys Anatomy
Then Boris Kodjoe
*PAUSE*
but DAYEEEM!
now Boris Kodjoe stayed in my heart longer than anyone in this post
It was after Brown Sugar, and especially after Madeas family reunion
Damn i loved his character in that movie
I used to watch clips from that movie... Scenes he appeared in
The Bus scene...
The Park Scene with the kids
The wedding vows...

I was gaga over Boris Kodjoe
As in i went to bed smiling because i knew i would wake up, to watch another 10 minutes of Boris Kodjoe
I was that obsessed!

then it was Derwin Davis from the Game

Enough with Reel life, lets talk about Real life
I wont lie, i am very attracted to very good looking guys
but i have always been a chicken, so i always act uninterested and not-so-impressed...
More important than looks, is a guys attitude
After spending 2 minutes listening to Mr World and you realize how shallow, self conceited, rude, vain, or boring he is, you cant blame me for seeing that Mask of fineness just washing away from him like rain washing paint off a wall...
(very bad comparison but... u get?)
And yeah, there have been guys who never really stroked my fancy at first but after getting to know them, you actually find yourself growing really fond of them
Like really fond of them
There is more to a guy than the Versace on his back
Or how sleek those sideburns look
Or that Million Dollar pack
There is more to a guy than all that

I have crushes on guys and nobody ever knows
Like nobody ever knows
I don't know why, but coincidentally when i like someone
i always have a girlfriend coming to tell me about how much she likes the same person
and...
I always encourage her
to
talk
to
him
and watch them hit it off
*sigh*

I have had crushes on guys and a year later i suddenly bump into them and go...
"what the HELL was i thinking??!"

I have had a crush on a guy but when he asked if i felt the same way i claimed i liked someone else
why?
I honestly don't know

I have liked and talked non stop about a guy for the whole weekend and saw him the following Monday and realized he was not so cute after all
It was not so long ago
It was just a week ago
Well now, a crush to me, is just an excuse to gush with my girlfriends
I am so into my boo
So no matter how cute mr-whatshis name is
i wouldnt care less

Oh! of cos and my famous girl crush
on miss keri baby!
i actually make it look like a big thing
most people look at me and say
u have a what...
and i say
"girl crush"
lol
am crazy most times

On a totally random issue
I just heard "swagger"
in an indian movie!!!
and i was like... but why???

Anyways My favorite girl is coming to see me
she reads too much! She just left school around this time on a Saturday!
lol now y'all know why she doesn't update her blog in ages :D
Yaayyy she just called me so am going to pick her up
Its gonna be a wonderful girls night in!!!!
Xoxo

The Law abiding citizen

2009-10-20T21:50:00.003-05:00

yeah
am not gonna spoil it for anyone
but DAMN!
For my people on blogsville that have watched it...
Did u find it as wonderful-in-a-i-have-to-write-the-producer-a-long-thank-you-letter way?
I did!
Jamie Foxx was excellent
And so was Gerald Butler
(wow... so Romantic comedys were not his only forte)
Off to bed, lovely people
I'll be back, when i have real posts
Forgive me :(

Meet Fierce

2009-10-19T13:12:00.004-05:00

I call her Red
Shes got a mind that works faster than ul ever know
Shes eloquent... shes dares to be different
Meet Fierce here
you will love her

When the centre cannot hold...

2009-10-08T06:18:00.004-05:00

It wasn’t writers block
Or bloggers blog, sorry I meant block
It was both
Add school, work and a very bad flu in there
Mix very well, keeping in mind the million times u logged on blogsville
read, laughed, and quietly signed out
garnish with a movie a two
serve with lots of love and an apology
And enjoy what it brings
Todays post!

Okay first things first
What i think about Fame
Well it wasn't disapointing
It was just okay
Its just not my fave dance movie
The last 30 minutes *two thumbs up*
but before then
i had checked my wristwatch about six times...
and by sweetness' standards
thats a no-no for a movie thats supposed to be worth watching
But the soundtrack has been in my head ever since
and so has this music video
i just love it

Things fall apart
My very good friend was taking part
and that was the only reason i went to watch the play
and it was worth every minute
i hadn't laughed so much in a long while
An anonymous blogger was also in the play
she knows her self *giggles*
I was gonna put her picture in the costume and all but there's no point
since u dont even know the anonymous blogger
even without the afro *evil laugh*

On someone's stupidity
This tall slim, off a magazine cover blonde in Leather and jeans meets me one night
while i was stuggling to close accounts with all the noise going on
her: (noisily chewing gum, not so impressive considering the carefully and beautifully made face) where can i get water for the performers
me: (*blank stare* okay so what if am wearing a shirt that says staff, you are right in front of the fridge)... umm i dunno what kind of water the performers take but everybody else gets water from that fridge

was that harsh? i'll blame it on the ah ah aah test coming up tuesday

On my Flu
God is finally paying me for all the wicked things i think and do
I woke up one morning with a terrible flu
so bad i was scared it was swine flu
Tufiakwa! mba!
not my portion
am feeling much better now thank you

On facebook
The old feeling is back, am finally getting what all the fuss about twitter is about
i love it... for now

Theres this ghanaian film
Heart of Men... with Majeed, Jackie et all
hands together for the first west african porno
what can i say
havent watched it yet but the trailer i saw said more than enough
oh well am keeping my fingers crossed
until i watch it
*smh*
An old friend found me on facebook yesterday...
Red has a blog
so does esay
anyway am off to bed
TGIF

before i leave... heres wishing Aisha happy married life
i finally found a picture i loved enough to share with you guys
isnt she a beautiful bride?

have a great weekend guys
much love!

Fame and Me

2009-09-24T15:14:00.003-05:00

Am pretty excited about watching Fame tomorrow
I hope its reaally good, am gonna be disappointed if its not
like seriously its the only dance movie all year.
Right now am watching Jay Z on the Oprah show.
Great personality, he is.
Its amazing to know that all through his teenage years while he sold drugs
He never took drugs
But thats not surprising is it
'Good dealers dont do' ayt??
True
I just got a call from my boss
some mix up in my schedule
I am doing all my assignments now, yeah like every single one
before i go to work because am working till late
and am gonna be pretty exhausted by the time i get back home
Yes and this weekend am gonna be 'acting mommys baby'
no assignments, thank u very much
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Back to my old habits
my X rated novels are back!
yes, yours truly got all the books she stashed under her bed out
and read and re-read them over and over again
Which reminds me- i have to get more

like a whole lot!
So today in class, Ricco hid my apple juice
(why?) i dont know
okay am kidding, its a little game we play
so apparently Costa had his apple juice on the desk too
And Iman kept hers too later
on that same table
all apple juice(s)
And while R is doing some other thing
I pick up an apple juice
and conveniently sipped it until class was over
and when the bell goes Ricco brings out my juice and is like
"i see u did not miss your juice today"
and am like...

whaaaaaaat???!

ewwwwwww
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I miss my boo. teribly
And no, its not the novels, i just got off the phone with him
i really do miss him, and i hate this distance
*sigh*

Money, Success and Fame never change you
They just bring out the you that has been hiding
when you did not have them

oh yess!
Banky W and Karl Wolf are performing in Ottawa tonight!

I have a new friend
everybody say hi to Lola
Xx

Me and Usher (oh and Peter of course)

2009-09-22T12:38:00.004-05:00

http://www.thisdayonline.com/nview.php?id=154942
Thats a must read for anyone who hasn't seen it already
(am a bit sloooow on things work, school and all)
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The season premiere of Heroes 'Orientation' was great
it just had me thinking...
how did i even survive without Heroes?
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RESOLUTIONS
*rolling my eyes*
yeah i know! its September and am just making resolutions
wrong!
I made 'em in January
am just adding 3 new now :-)
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In no particular order
No drama
*ever*
from a girl or guy, no drama
as soon as u smell drama, back out
nobody ever understands me when i start with my no-drama-wahala
I grew up as an 'almost-only' child
i am not used to 'they say u say'
I am not used to 'they will start saying...'
I absolutely hate'... i heard that...'
shut up already!
Its really unfortunate that i lose interest very easily
and i probably suck at keeping in touch
SMH
really i do
but anyway back to the important stuff
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There's something about guys
I think all cheats look alike
I think all liars look alike
I think all skirt chasers have this particular look
am i the only person who feels that way
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Oh yeah the post title... i had this dream about usher
???
infact... weird!
I have a class in fifteen minutes
Send ur BB pins
i need t add y'all
Much love
xoxo

The VMA i did not watch

2009-09-16T10:39:00.010-05:00

Chris Brown <- He is first on my list for a reason
Tip T.I Harris
Idris Elba
Paul Walker
Michael Ealy
Hayden Christensen
Jay Hernandez
Matt Dillon
All in one movie
*TAKERS*

anyway
back to my main post
What was i even doing while everyone else was watching the VMA?
ohh i was doing an assignment
A long one, and clicking all over the net for volunteer sites
did i hear you say wtf?
exactly
but thats gist for another day
So kanye did something not really surprising right?
who else but kanye?
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If i were Taylor Swift that night, what would i do?
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I just saw an ass-grabbing pic of kanye west and amber rose
the beautiful amber rose
but no thank you
i dont put distasteful(?) pictures on my blog

I was reading the reviews for facebook lite
Facebook for Africa: Facebook Lite
World’s number 1 social networking website Facebook last week launched a very light version of their popular platform, for people in low-bandwidth situations who still need to connect to Facebook without opting for the mobile phone versions
and i think its awesome
because for some reason my computer is sloooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooow
You can check it out
http//lite.facebook.com
it really does load quickly
It truly is light
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P.S
I still love Kanye
And i still have him on my ringtone
but like he said
"Look at the valedictorian scared of the future
While I hop in the Delorean
Scared-to-face-the-world complacent career student
Some people graduate, but be still stupid"
Stupid...
Stupid...
Hmmm...
great song

The Inconvenient Truth

2009-09-12T12:46:00.005-05:00

Lately I’ve been hard to reach
I’ve been too long on my own
Everybody has a private world
Where they can be alone
Are you calling me?
Are you trying to get through?
Are you reaching out for me?
Like I’m reaching out for you.
MeMoirs of an imperfectly perfect Shopaholic by Es*ay Cullen
but damn she iiiis a shopaholic
I just got off the phone with my bestfriend
I call her tweeny
Cos a lot of people think we are sisters
because according to them we really look
alike
which i find really flattering because OMG shes a beauty
and am not just saying this cos shes my besto
am saying it cos thats the truth
Sept 10th was her birthday
and i called her to hear all the juicy details
and desciptions of all the glorious gifts i couldnt help unwrap :P

First week of School was soo not bad at all
hell, scratch that
First week of school was fab!
My mom is fine
I was with her earlier this week, back home to pick a couple of things over the weekend
and travel back to her place
Have i ever mentioned how much i love my mom?
GReEn LiViNG by Sweetness
Has anyone seen the Brita commercial
The one with an empty bottle and it says "Forever in a landfill"
*silence*
I also urge you to watch the Inconvenient truth today
You can buy it online, rent it online
get it from any movie store, it is a must watch mos def!
Going green is the only option we have
My name is now Sweetness
*written in green :)*

Other developments
During the 9/11 remembrance yesterday there was a major scare apparently
A suspicious boat was spotted and fired at
This was at the Potomac River opposite The pentagon military headquaters
where Obama was giving a speech
It was later revealed to be a training exercise...

And secondly dear blogsvile
i ask what is the meaning of this?
wot do you guys think?

Number one

2009-09-09T16:11:00.005-05:00

BREAKING NEWS
Evangelos Michelakis of the University of Alberta in Edmonton, Canada, and his colleagues tested DCA on human cells cultured outside the body and found that it killed lung, breast and brain cancer cell

One minute of silence
Today is 09-09-09
Another minute of silence
You still dont get it?
no?
2009
cure for cancer

Canada???

okay let me remind you :)

Yeah now u remember Will smiths I am legend
how the cure for cancer wiped out 7/8 of the earths population
in 2009
oh well maybe i watch too many movies
*I pray the cure is real though*
nobody deserves such pain

My love for keri... everybody knows
everybody on my facebook at least
and all the crazy bisexual keri rumours are not even allowed to be processed in my brain
they are just lyrics people of the world
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I just got back from work and school so am tired
update later

As you might have noticed my posts sometimes have nothing to do with the post title
hehe

Fag is the new sexy

2009-09-06T21:38:00.006-05:00

Not my words
My friends girlfriend
really pweety girl
and i was looking for a title for my post
by the way
Eureka!
I just made a very important discovery
I danced for a whole minute
Its like finding TI's number on ur skype
okay not really
but close
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Es*ay just found out that one girl she knows is preggars
preggars for who?
she doesnt know
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Am starting school in two days
am wondering where my holiday went
like seriously, 2 posts ago i was making so much noise about my holiday and how i was gonna spend it, and now, am getting ' go green' notebooks. pfft
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I watched this movie today
The king is mine
sounds cheesy huh?
its nice. really. the 2nd part was seriously dragged but well, whats new?
It reminded everyone of Tudors
The whole Shakespearean english
Royal setting
great movie
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I just found out my housemate was prom queen
lets call her *red*
anyway shes really cool and nice
my leenarhh is back from Montreal
her sister is back from NY
enkayy will be back soon
JN is leaving Taipei around now
i missed him :-(
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I wrote a 3 minute play today titled "deal or no deal"
its about sexual harrasment

Scene 1
A girl in her early 20’s, is sitting on the sofa in a house. She is wearing a grey suit and red shirt, she checks her wristwatch it’s about 6:30 in the evening. She has been there for about 10 minutes, she observes her surroundings. The house is beautifully furnished. A man walks in; he looks like he’s 48

Man: You must be Lisa
Lady: Yes sir, I am Lisa Adams.
Man: Mark Brown, pleasure meeting you
Lisa: Same here

They shake hands, he offers her a seat and sits opposite her

Mark: so can I offer you something?
Lisa: No am ok, thank you, I will just like to discuss our company’s proposal with you and...
Mark: (cuts her short) yeah I understand all that, and I am prepared to transfer my account to your company, which is why I asked you to reschedule this meeting to my place
Lisa: Oh thank you very much; this is much easier than I thought
Mark: well with someone as beautiful as you, nothing should be hard, are you sure you don’t want a drink?
Lisa: umm... no, Im ok thank you
Mark: You are a beautiful young lady Lisa, how long have you been a service agent?
Lisa: (bringing out some documents from her bag) For 6 months... can u please sign these documents sir?
Mark: (he smiles, and leans back in the chair) yeah bring them over
He looks at her, as she walks toward him, and he licks his lips, she sits down and hands him a pen
Mark: come closer, come closer... Lisa, you know I have an account your company needs very much, and I also happen to find you very attractive
He moves closer to her, and starts touching her arm, she moves back
Lisa: Excuse me? Umm sir I don’t do this
Mark: Nobody has to know, besides my wife and kids are not in the country so you can spend the night...
Lisa: what?! I do not mix business with pleasure, it is against my company’s regulations to date clients
Mark: Its not a date, lets just call it a payment for my account. Besides this is not gonna be the first time, Katy and Jasmine were here 8 months and they got my accounts for my other two companys, it was a wild night haha... we could go to my hotel if you want
Lisa: I am not so sure about this
Mark: its okay just think about how much your company needs this account, you could lose your job if you don’t get it
He smiled, and leaned back, he knew he had her now, he couldn’t wait to ravish his latest conquest
Lisa: Do you promise to give me the account?
Mark: its all yours, just do as I say

He started to unbutton her shirt
Lisa: Great!
She opened her bag and brought out a mini voice recorder from her bag and waved it in front of him, smiling
Mark: what is the meaning of these?
Lisa: well lets just say I have evidence against you now, I have recorded all our conversation and I intend to use it against you
Mark: what?!
Lisa: Your dirty deeds have caught up with you, you mess up, and I take this recorder to the cops
Mark: you have to be kidding, don’t give me that bull shit
Lisa: your case has been brought up to our station a couple of times but for lack of evidence, nothing has been done, so imagine how useful this voice recorder will be to them
Mark stood up, he knew he was busted now, but he wouldn’t give up so easily
Mar
k: well this is my house, and I can tell security to not let you out until you give me the recorder
Lisa: I am not so stupid, I am here with the cops and if I am not out in... (she looked at her watch again) in 3 minutes, they will be coming in, so do we have a deal? Its your choice, you sign my papers or I give them the recorder
Mark: This is blackmail!
Lisa: it is what you do well, you have two minutes Mark

Oh my commenting stuff is back
after how many months...
I am not so faceless after all
I should have figured
(i should just put my picture on the top right hand corner of my blog)
or not!
:-p

nyt unveiled!
its sweetness!!

Show yourself

2009-09-05T01:12:00.000-05:00

I was with a beautiful... um how will i refer to her
my friend, yes a beautiful friend
AND my miss beautiful friend doesnt know Brad pitt
**serious!**
she reads my blog
and she knows its me, why? she said cos it sounds like me
and she put two and two togather
(yeah i knew i was gonna get busted soon)
just not thiiiis soon
damnit
anyway i know u are reading this
Show urself!!!
looool

Buyaaka Buyaaka

Inflicting tremendous pain on someone wih your words
possibly my greatest weapon (which i never use)
but do we ever realise how much pain our words can cause
especially if we lace them with the right biting remarks

Am back on twitter
*checking my nails*

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Final destination was A*W*Esome

Happy birthday to my beyonce
i like beyonce
alot
i sing all her songs is in the shower
and kitchen
shes 28!
can u imagine?
where did 25, 26 and 27 go
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Trouble on Merivale

2009-08-25T05:30:00.000-05:00

I wasn't supposed to be back here until tomorrow
but this can't wait!
hmmmn see me see trouble oh
Okay first things first, Es*ay, Khd (our almost brother)and Np, his friend from Hamilton who has been around for a couple of days and myself went to Swiss Chalet for dinner (1st meal of the day after how many hours)
after that Khd said he wanted to get a milkshake from the Mcdonalds nearby, Esay and I said we wanted Tim Hortons Iced Cappuccino which was across the road from Mcdonalds, we were walking when suddenly we saw this car coming towards us with full speed, we moved aside, and when he passed he started screaming insults on us
something that included "... you 12 year olds"
????
Trust the guys, they were already too pissed to be calm
then the guy stopped a couple of meters infront of us and was getting something out from the trunk of his car
a gun?
Me and Es*ay did not wait to see
We ran behind a pillar and waited for the gunshot
looo0ooool
the funny thing was we were laughing while hiding
but i swear we were scared!
the place was deserted as a cemetery
and the Beer Shop was a few meters away
all i could think was... he's drunk and armed!
looo0ool
anyway he drove off
and Np was like looo0oool we actually hid?
what if the guy blasted them
jeeeeez!

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I was reading one of Linda Ikeji's post
she wrote about Boris Kodjoe's wedding vows
now i am reminded of why i fell in instant love with him right after
Madeas family reunion
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Recent disturbances: ES*AY
Es*ay
Es*ay
Es*ay
hmmm that girl won't kill me
I have always wished for a sister
but this one is my worst nightmare
jokes. jokes
but for real though
I will post her picture on this blog soon
when you see her, you will swear she can't hurt a fly
But she gives me pAAAin
she tortures my pooor soul
that child! infact
apart from her vampy traits
(she wants a vampire boyfriend, she doesnt like coming out during the day, she loves cranberry juice, strawberries.... any thing red...)
She scares me at night
She hides on the laundry machine in the dark and wait for me to pass and she jumps out
hmmmm
hmmmm
Anyone knows Edward Cullens mailing address?
i need to put her in an envelope :-)

A little of this.... okay and that!

2009-08-24T16:06:00.000-05:00

well helloo there! hows everything going? Its August and Inglorious Basterds is *bleep bleep* awesome!
You know, its not like the regular movies you hear so much about and when you are in the cinema, 45 minutes into the film, you check your wristwatch for the 6th time, and wonder what the fuss was about, you should have just stayed at home and read blogs
I have never loved war movies, when i was younger, my dad's war films used to make me wonder, when are they gonna get home
i'll sleep off, wake and ask my dad again, "why are they still fighting?"
"they are fighting a war sweetness"
around that time,i would have dozed off again

My dads favorites were probably, They died with their shoes on, Major Dundee, High road to china and a couple of other ones with angry looking men, with what i called charcoal back in the days all over their body, shooting behing trees, heavy boots and too much shouting, i wonder which was louder, the shooting or the shouting
(or my shouting)
I just felt war movies were for big soilders like my dad. Until this one
The Inglorious Basterds
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Its the third day into Ramadan.... Mashaallah
I have been bringing my deen out
(deen /di:n/ arabic for belief :)
it kinda happens around this time, every ramadan
like most other muslims
I spend more time reading and understanding the Quran
Reading the Hadiths
Being a better person generally
I dont have bad habits like smoking or drinking to stop (or miss for hours)but i do read lots of novels with a unPG rating
now thats what i have to quit for 30 days
and i dont mind at all
And am not much of a food person so basically for me Ramadan is just one of those days... just knowing u cant open the fridge and just get something out and eat is what makes it feel like Ramadan. bless!

What else? My first ramadan not at 'home'
home: A place where ur family stay, during ramadan, 10 course meals are prepared, more family members come over, you all sit together and wait for magrib prayer to be called and you eat for a whole hour and half before going to pray
Its a tradition of the Prophet Muhammed, peace be upon him to start with dates (Dabino) so thats what you start with, then you begin your rounds, Kunu, Kosai (hausa for beancakes) potatoes, eggs, rice, sausages, pounded yam, semovita, tuwo and all kids of soup
fruit salad, peppersoup, peppersoup, peppersoup, caeser salad, drinks, water drinks

well now i live in an apartment
apartment: A place where students live, and in ramadan they take fruits, make noodles and lots of coke

imagine
*sigh*
I MISS HOME
if u never knew, now u do

GOoD nEWS.com
My mum just left Nigeria
Shes going to Netherlands
and here!!
to her baby
:-D
I love that woman, shes more than a best friend.. shes a sister!!
lol

You might wonder what is so special about Ramadan
Ramadan is one of the 12 months of the islamic calender
its the month in which the Holy Quran
Our book of guidance was reveiled
All prayers are answered and
All sins are forgiven

Oh in Nigeria, magrib sometimes was as early as 5:55pm
in Abuja and kaduna it was around 6:15
Lagos 6:30

HERE: 8:10pm!!!

lol its 6pm now unveiled
Ramadan mubarak dearie
kisses

My post exam post :)

2009-08-19T20:07:00.000-05:00

I finished my exams a week ago *insert biiiig smile here*
and no i haven't blogged since
not like haven't blogged -haven't-blogged
yes i read all posts but no i dont post any
mehn!
i am enjoying the hols like whaaat???
i have been shopping sleeping reading novels sleeping watching movies sleeping going out hanging out sleeping and all those glorious things one can't even begin to thank God any less for
so wassup?
hmm lets see

well...
1) Am gonna read HP all over again, its been a while plus i need to get in touch with my supernatural side *bloggerhiliamus!*

2) The much awaited time traveler's wife is out if u haven't watched this film yet and you wanna do so, you should stop reading this post *spoiler alert* :)
So i think, it was a very good movie but the book is way way better
a couple of things in the book make the ending more tear worthy :D

3) I love Eric Bana

4) I loove Rachael McAdams even more

5) Yes! i absolutely love keri hilson

6) I love my boo... he is so sweet

7) I think this is the season for love lol

8) Haven't had a mood swing in a while... bless

9) RAMADAN is close!!! Knockiing practically
omg i need ramadan to kick out all my bad habits
fasting makes me a better person
its the weight loss i usually dont like lol
haha well not really
i love everything about ramadan

10) I want to go to a Karaoke club (before ramadan)

Hmmm now dats wassup
much love
i will be back
*evil laughter*

EXaM mOdE

2009-08-11T16:46:00.000-05:00

Umm... Here's a status update that caught my attention today

Names have been changed to save the innocent and not so innocent
enjoy!
Anyway heres his status update, and below are the interesting comments
A.A: I used 2 have da mentality ov not sleeping wit a gurl i think am gna marry,buh not any more,cuz if u no do sumbody go do nd e fit b ur friend sef.Dont get me wrong,dats if she wants to,not making her do

interesting right? wait till you see the rest.

MPS:hmmmm must always take the car out for a test run. Try before you buy otherwise you're stuck with the broken down motor!

A.F: I guess virtually all angles of contention have already been delibrated... although having sex before marriege is a taboo in both Islam and christianity bt they both have provided a remedy for tasting d forbiden fruit B4 marriege. interms of Islam it is reffered to as ISTIBURAE'E in which the couple will not see or speak 2 each other 4 3 months b4... Read more they can go ahead. While, in terms of christianity they could just renounce satan & embrace the holy spirit by becoming born again. there4 both religions condole's the act.

B.S: but for real there r two thing: first if she aint a virgin why wait for ur marraige?? secondly, how do u knw if its just cos of sex u lik or dnt lik her? u hv to try it out bruv.... its a necessary eveil to do urself, b4 someon does it to u (like u said)..

B.A: dere is dis guy I knw before he got married to his wife he told he wasn't a virgin n she told him she was. She doesn't evn allow him kiss her dat she has neva kissd anyone dat she wants her 1st time to b special. On dia 1st nite she got busted
She has bein doin it behind his back wit her cousin. He is abt to divorce her for breach of contract....

BG. D: tymz e no go b ur friend ma sef but ur bro,bt i stil blv se u go fit get virgin if u neva tear leather b4 marriage..cuz d world is a do me i do u thing

D.A: wait for marriage...yh, i know these days it's hard to trust people but it's still a moral/religious issue...besides, those guyz who got screwed over by their wives were probably sleeping with oda ppl b4 marriage too...how can a guy who wasn't "preserving" himself for his wife expect his wife to "preserve" herself for him? It's not fair to the wife... Read more o! They both got their equal sha...
But, man, i gotta say i find Bashir's story creepy! such deception is just beyond evil....chei!
All the same, sha...whether he "test-drived" or not, it wudn't hv changed the fact dat she was sleeping wit her cousin....

C.K.O: deola you make me laff how can u talk like this in 21 century come on there no virgins in world any more even in the so called villages those once are infact i dont want to go there
no offence dont get me wrong but if i ask if you are a virgin what will you say ? this is what gals always say
1 lie
2 get mad and say what kind of talk is that
3 tell you to find out ... Read more
4 go silent on you
all this is answers we all know where they are going
which is HELLO AM NOT A V
so my dear 4get all that moral gist

B.H: awake u re !00% ryt i am in total support of it.Sleep with dem to know d performance of ur engine whether it is V8 or V 6.cos if u marry a dead or half engine u shud expect minimal performance.U could sleep with dem so dat she ll knw dat u re man enuf but if u allow her most definately 1 mugu ll surely taste her for u. so guys be warned.testin is allow b4 marriage but u can amend it after

M.R: Its bad luck not to sleep wiv a girl u want to marry!!!

D.A: really all ur comments here r saddening...i can't accept that so many ppl think lyk this...personally, I know there r many virgins in the world (and, no, they aren't kids or village ppl!!!)...maybe u guyz r hanging out with d wrong crowd, yo.
and C.O, I wudn't lie...i'm not ashamed of bein a virgin. It's a personal choice...but bak to the topic, it's appalling dat every1 thinks u must "test-drive"...no wonder virgins are becoming fewer by the second!

M.P.S:Sex is an important part of a relationship. Its what distinguishes your relationship from friendship. I applaud anyone who is able to remain a virgin, they are virtually extinct, with how the world is at the moment. Im not sure how it is in Nigeria I live in London and its damned tough I tell you, but I think its difficult to marry someone you ... Read morehaven't been intimate with. How do you know you're more than just good friends? The plus side to being a virgin is that you do not know what you are missing therefore it's likely you will remain faithful which is how it should be - Im just a realist...

G.L:u better hamma her well before she go fall in love with man wey sabi am

Z.A: Wow! this is sth goin on here.....
Awake if u trust her, dnt let anyth colour ur view or change ur standpoint
if every man wants 2 test drive wat do u want 2 b left of her dignity????
as dey say gals av chicken brain n always beliv u na lies...
... Read more
@ Collins gals r no longer shy of nt bein virgins o! sit dwn der let pant b wearin u...lol
d same way u want 2 taste variety, gals want too
isnt it beta 2 av a wife dat has njoyd lyf n is faithful wen she settles dwn dan avin 1 dat sleeps wiv ur friends or fada frnds aftr marriage?
Abeg! we r in d era of globalizatn.....
no b man disvirgin dem? did dey do it on deir own?
weda una like am or nt u ll stil marry dem virgin or nt

D.O: Ewoooo!!! (or wateva noise they make in dose naij movies wen trouble comes)....WOW, Awwal....i'm amazed at ur post o....so these religions actually permit sex b4 marriage, abi? Wen it clearly says that one shouldn't even "approach" illegal sex talkless of doing it....
@ zahrah; u seem to be implying that if a woman hasn't had sex b4 marriage, she's gna be an unfaithful wife....dat's something I've neva heard of b4 o....
abeg sef, y is every1 attacking virginity? Yes, it's getting rarer by the day...but it exists and ppl shud try to maintain dat.
And y only female virginity? For me o, I think d guy shud be a virgin too...... Read more
tho i think ppl will hav my head off 4 even suggesting dat

Z.O: babes im nt implyin anyth.....al m sayin is dat we shldnt get emotnal ova issues we dnt av control ova...lik MJ said start d change in u 1st.
if u want 2 remain a vrgin good, cos its ll make him respect u mor n if u want a guy dat is a virgin(Ameen 2 dat) der r alot cos i noe few.

A.B: ask me,i know a woman's dignity is with her virginity....
and quoting MJ-start d change with u but sud be in a positive way......u want to see more virgins? change ur perception......am alarmed 90% guys here bliv in checking out first!!!
And hey,who says male virginity is an abomination

lol honestly theres more... but i'll save u
what do i think?
thats post for another day...

XxxxX
Sweetness!

My Present State, Creamy Crack and other short stories

2009-08-05T18:26:00.001-05:00

Right now i am in a 'love like me thinking of you thinking of me thinking of you type love'
Me telling my friends more than I’ve ever admitted to myself about how I feel about you type love
I hope I make him feel as good as he makes me feel
I want to try counting the ways he loves me
And lose count in the middle just so I have to start all over again
And I want to celebrate one of those one month anniversaries
Even though they ain’t really anniversaries
But celebrating with him just gets me really happy

For those who know this post was inspired by Shihan
I was talking (amongst other things)with my friend
my very good friend, and we started talking about the Doha debates
and then
Will religion be a barrier
if i fell in love with a christain?
Marriage is sacred... and so is true love
and i was thinking
...

Two films i absolutely cant wait for
Tyler perrys (i love this guy)I can do bad with Adam Rodriguez, Taraji P Henson and miss J Blige and of course our favorite, aunt Madea sounds good already yeah? Just check out the Trailer :-)and

and Good hair
loo000oool
am sure the ladies will love this

Lol creamy Crack!

What can i say?
currently listening to Pm Dawn's I'd die without you

I love U

2009-08-04T10:18:00.000-05:00

"I Love You"
I love you, not only for what you are,
but for what I am when I am with you.
I love you, not only for what you have made of
yourself, but for what you are making of me.
I love you for the part of me that you bring out;
I love you for putting your hand into my heaped-up
heart and passing over all the foolish, weak things
that you can't help dimly seeing there, and for drawing
out into the light all the beautiful belongings that no
one else had looked quite far enough to find.
I love you because you are helping me to make
of the lumber of my life not a tavern, but a temple;
Out of the works of my every day not a reproach,
but a song.
I love you because you have done more than
any creed could have done to make me good,
and more than any fate could have done
to make me happy.
You have done it without a touch,
without a word, without a sign.
You have done it by being yourself.

and you love me too

spanish love

2009-08-03T17:57:00.000-05:00

Since i got back from Montreal i have been something else, i am so exhausted!
jeez i should not have gotten on so many rides.
Me and Es*ay left our crib for the first time today since we got back
Right now am at Leenarh and En kayys place watching One tree Hill, or rather glancing at One Tree Hill every one minute

Now who remembers all those spanish soaps
I hope someone watches them, hope am not the only one with an insatiable spanish love hunger
I think my most favorite was The Gardeners daughter(La mujer del jadinero), or When you are mine (cuando seas mia)... or Second chance(Screen title: El cuerpo del deseo: body of desire). ohh my but who remembers The Gardeners daughter? Incase you dont heres a litle synopsis

it was awesome!
And the guys were so baddd! straight out of the covers of the historical romances under my pillow.
Diego
Salvador
*sigh*
I remember when Isabella, Paloma and the signoras changed my wardrobe. It was sudeenly filled with long flowing skirts of different colours
and matching veils.... (no they did not wear veils- that was jus my touch)
I think spanish guys are deliciously sexy
I think their language is sexy too

So anyway, i am working on my portfolio as well and i am not even half way. Its due in a week!
Hopefully ill finish tomorrow night
Have u ever had a crush on someone, seen him years later and go WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING?
ohh yes.
I miss ma tweeny, bestfriend and sister fom another mother.
am gonna blog about her pretty soon
Its time to pray... gotta go
xoxo sweetness

settling for LESS

2009-08-02T01:39:00.000-05:00

He said: 'haven't you been shopping, seen a wickedly expensive dress and known that even if you were willing to eat beans for the next two months, you still couldn't have that dress'
silence
'wot should you do?' he continued
more silence
'walk away' she said 'and look for a knock off i can afford in another store'
pretty logical yeah?
and straight forward for a girl who thinks the way i do
'now that's your first mistake' he didn't have to sound so cheery about it 'and that's why you wound up with a man who didn't suit you. you settled for less
settled for less'

Settled: past tense of verb settle
To put firmly into a desired position or place
Less: Adj Lower in importance, esteem, or rank

'What you need to do is march into that store and try that dress. When you try it on and see that it doesn't look as good on your bodacious self for that kind of money, you walk away feeling good about not buying it'
Okay JH is getting me confused now
I thought we were talking relationships here
and on this note i will like to share one of my favorite videos with you
The important part starts from 2:30
enjoy

ooh by the way the picture above is from La Ronde Montreal
was in Montreal with my friends over the weekend
and we had a blast on all the monster rides, roller coasters, pirates ship through tunnels, water splashes and all the blood-rushing-light-headed-causing factors that place is well known for
scary but fun

By the side stories:
2 nights ago i punked my friends. Es*ay was with me. It started around midnyt to well past two am
I hope they don't plan to get us
jeez
I love them to bits though

We had some guests from Toronto, can't remember if i mentioned it before, but they are gone now
what else?

my exams have been good, Monday is a holiday
that's why i could run to Montreal
dont have an exam till Thursday and to ease the guilt of having fun and loving it
am gonna read before i sleep

aah i changed my template again... was bored sick with brown *gulp*
unveiled!!!
i missed ya
ayt ill see ya tmrw nyt
tataz

♥♥♥

what happens when you are the victim?

2009-07-31T13:28:00.000-05:00

My tea's gone cold I'm wondering why I..
got out of bed at all
The morning rain clouds up my window..
and I can't see at all
And even if I could it'd all be gray,
but your picture on my wall
It reminds me, that it's not so bad,
it's not so bad..

i like mariah careys obsessed. because i like mariah
i like eminem too. scratch that, i own all of ems albums
then i heard the warning!!!
okay eminem got her real bad on that one... what?
which brings me to limes
yup. limes
dats wot i call an old relationship
like my best friend and her boo used to be an item you'd love
the best i had ever come across
that was last year
now they dont even talk... its gone sour
thats limes

mariah it still occurs to you that i have pictures?
thats a classic line
anyway back home
i think its amazing the number of dirty shit that comes out after a break up
i cringe everytime i hear a couple break up
cos i know its gonna be a week
and the stories start making way to your circle her friends and frenemies

So the other day i was talking with my brother, and he subtly said something about how girls should never be caught in compromising situations or do stuff they would regret or allow themselves give someone a reason to blackmail them
word.
I know he was just trying to tell me the kind of jerks guys can be
i hold his words like gold!lol
Which makes me wonder
isn't being in a relationship supposed to be full of trust
so much trust
you practically live in each others shoes
in each others lives... for each other
In my shoes, just to see
What its like, to be me
Ill be you, lets trade shoes
Just to see what id be like
To feel your pain, you feel mine
Go inside each others minds
Just to see what we'd find

but that's not even possible anymore
gone are the days when guys delete pictures immediately after a break up
clear their room, phone of anything that reminds them of the girl or smells like her
nowadays after a break up... guys look 4 them in every nook and corner
old memory cards, old phones, i swear they go that far
just to find something to show a friend
who will show a friend... who will...
But then again, my instincts are never wrong
am sure yours are not too
you can smell a guy who likes drama from a thousand miles. my advice? STAY AWAY
just the way he talks about 'the bitch' <-
-> his ex girlfriend, should be enough warning for you
you shouldn't just run away from him, pull of those jimmy choos, hold them and run in the opposite directions as fast as you can
1 minute
i need to laugh at that hilarious picture i just conjured

lol i need to love up with my books
nude pictures (and many other things) should NEVER be sent to anyone. i repeat. anyone
and for those that say a camcorder is the best turn on
ahh OYO men, u are so on your own i have nothing to say
i cant shout!
'nuff said
xxx

Exam week!!

2009-07-26T18:28:00.000-05:00

hey again!
been down with the usual migraine
it did not kill me though - it just made my life unbearable for a whole day
I have exams tomorrow, i have been reading like i should
Just took a break to pull out what ama wear tomorrow and decided to holla
Just added another fantastic blog to my roll

Currently listening to: Taio Cruz Break your heart

1. What is your name? Sweetness

2. A four Letter Word: />Sexy

3. A boy's Name: />
Seyi
4. A girl's Name: />Samira
5. An occupation: />Stenography

6. A color: />
Scarlett

7. Something you wear: />
Sweat shirt

9. A food: />
Sushi
10. Something found in the bathroom: />Soap
11. A place: />Switzerland

12. A reason for being late: />
Sleepover
13. Something you shout: />Shit!

14. A movie title: />
Sweet November
15. Something you drink: />
Silhouette Yogurt
16. A musical group: />
Soundgarden
17. An animal: />
Squirrel
18. A street name: />Saheed Balogun Street (somewhere in lagos am sure theres a street like that)

19. A type of car: />
SUV
20. The title of a song: />Sexual healing

This is a very pathetic excuse for a post
The next one will be better
Oh the sprinkler is back again
Mwaaaah!

"...and my head keeps spinning, i can't stop having these visions"

2009-07-22T23:05:00.000-05:00

'...well he's looking at your toes now, hes gonna do sushi with them!' and
'aah i did not read her note on facebook i just 'liked' it so she'll be happy'
yup. she gives me joy. i can laugh all day if es*ay isn't watching another movie, her favorite pastime

My presentation went very well thank you.
Last night i was blasting oldies with loove
chaka chaka: thank you mr dj for playing my song....
am burning up, am burning up... my heart is on fire, am burning up....
this is from me to you
all we have to do....

brenda fassie RIP ...its your wedding day its yoooourrr wedding day
i remember past years
how old was i? dancing in the sitting room with my momma
seriously screaming along with all my strength while trying to concentrate on the video...
yup i sang along yesternight too
my lines are even crustier now
aah i did not stop there, i went on to king sunny ade (no not the recent ones like lift nigeria... i like that one too though)
the olddd ones, i remember my mom used to have them, and play them.... jeez happier days. i dont know the words but just listening to them after years made me feel so... content
like some moments are yours they can't be taken from you ever...
i went on to listen to oumue sangare's ah ndiya, yes u guessed right, my mom again
and saadu bori... umm my dad this time
nostalgia

so i am feeling kanye west like never before
umm yes am an official jeezy and weezy and yeezy (can i say teezy 4 T.I? no? really?? aww, sad)

anyway i can listen to those four
and MI of course
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I haven't watched a hindi movie in a while

i remember my best friend in secondary school she was my namesake
and half indian, she was always going on about this indian mini-god
so one afternoon she calls me
hey switch the channel to Sony
and i did
and she excitedly gushes
"ohh dats him, isnt he adorable?"
it was a head and shoulders ad
weird face
weirder smile
*n-o-p-e*
i did not find him cute
she wondered where my taste went lol

so one bright sunny day i had ran out of old movies to watch, then i was rocking RMDs violated and Sandra Achums When the sun sets (they were actually very old when i was in ss1)... i stumbled on this film my friend gave me kuch kuch hota hai
it was translated and so i watched it
3 hours later (yeah they are that loooong)
Three hours and a roll of tissue paper later
red nosed-red eyed and happy that true love was reunited at last
i called my friend, oh my God, i loveee SharRukh Khan, hes so sweet!
"oh yeah? 3 weeks ago u said he was ugly sweetness!"
"oh that was him?.... oh... um i guess he looks better... without dandruff"

jeez. shoot me!

My best hindi movie is (no, not slumdog millionaire, give me a break!)
Taare zameen par (stars on earth), about this dyslexic kid, the disturbing things he went through and how he overcame it, really nice.

I love hindi tearjerkers only if it has SharRukh in it.( only being the keyword here)A dying SharRukh can be a classic
like Devdas or Kal ho na hoo (if tomorrow never comes)

I stay away from the really cheesy ones, which is the reason i havent watched one in a while... Since Black

now that should have been the oscar movie... dont get me wrong i do love Slumdog millionaire too...

My friend Bob (he doesnt like it when i call him this) left for naija today, wish him a safe flight, we all miss him already

***leggy dear, am not sure my comment box will ever be open, i dont really write much when i know am gonna get feedback, i tend to keep somethings inside, thanx 4 mentioning it and i still stalk ur blog... i liked the one on ur sisters especially, by the way marcaroni... nothing too special, u aint missin much. kisses***

I am going to my books now. My books need me, i need my books.
Its gonna be a long night
muaaaah!
xoxo sweetness!

You give me J-O-Y

2009-07-19T14:13:00.000-05:00

a weird kind of joy
so last night i watched another old favorite for the hundredth time
bringing up baby cary grant and katherine hepburn
yes dat one! its so old its in black n white
that movie was made in 1930 something
and it gives me joy in a way no one understands
maybe its katherines high pitched voice
or his quest for the intercoastal bone
or the tiger 'baby' :D
i derive weird pleasure from watching that film

so i have been listening to kanye all day
and working on my powerpoint slides for tomorrows presentation
i should be back here before midnight

reality check! family guy

2009-07-18T21:15:00.000-05:00

... DISCLAIMER!!!this post has nothing to do with the title

damn i think the cropped hair was a really bad idea...
you know its like when you are in a certain mood, and you do a particular hairstyle... so what happens when that mood wears out, like mine has... i am totally not feeling it right now
now i understand how tatoos can be a mistake
*today was my best in 3 days*
i did not see the sun
spoke to less than 5 people
read 7 pages in my Holy Book

and
i made my self throw up
twice...
old habits come back easily
i try not to read about bulamia
cos you would see the guilt on my face
but really the smallest things set it off
today it was a sharwama i ate... and i was like eww
do i really need that in my system?
then i started dancing and singing
and i went to wash my face
then i put my fingers down my throat
again
and i felt much better thank you very much
theres no point telling myself i wont do it again, i always do it

anyway to something else
i almost died when i was 8 (i think i almost die every 4 years jeez)
nobody ever told me that u cant push the top of the freezer open from the inside (are you serious?)
during one of those 40 degrees afternoon back home
me and my cousins were always playing hide and seek
and there was this day i almost entered the freezer to hide, besides it was hot
i had opened it already and wanted to pull a chair to climb and tumble inside the freezer and hide till my cousin came, i was pretty sure she wouldnt find me, then i realised the dining room chair in front of the freezer would give me away and i entered the store instead
needless to say, she found me first
and we there were six of us playing...

dangerous games kids play
my friend told me about her 6 year old cousin they found dead in the freezer.
another of my friend said when she was younger they locked up their friend in the trunk of car when they were playing and totally forgot her until evening!
a family friend of ours found her beautiful two year old drowned in the bathtub, it wasnt so long ago it was 4 years ago
these accidents just had me thinking...
and we always insist that a child playing at home is safe *shudders*

games adults play
Hard to get is not a game
its a state of mind
if she acts like she doesnt want you
stop flattering yourself, she doesnt want you
get over yourself
you are not that charming
or shes just not into you

to less disturbing stories
as an official stalker of the def jam poetry
i should have my favorites up on my blog
- or maybe not

i added 6 more blogs to my blogroll today
i desperately wanted to comment on 5 posts i read today but
i did not
because i have disabled comments on my page
thats what being faceless is about isnt it?

weirdest question someone ever asked me: are you a lesbian?
subhanallah
what??!
my lack of interest in the opposite sex... wait a minute
i should not even address this issue

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aww happy married life D*nde***o
u were like a big sis to me
we were close friends
we had our ups and downs but we overcame them
i remember when you used to give me crazy makeovers
when we used to dance infront of the television
how we cried over the silliest movies
our coke and pepsi addiction
our fights over Dan browns
evening rides to video mars
singing loud in the car when driving back home
laughing for no reason when those toasters were ogling
you are probably the most beautiful girl your age i know
lol and your nickname d*nde***o
happy married life xoxo
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i want to watch an old movie tonight
something tragically sad :D or seriously hilarious
*sigh*
i need to go do my laundry and sleep miss unveiled
ill see you tommorrow
xoxo
its me sweetness

this...discomfort!

2009-07-18T00:31:00.000-05:00

***you are a like a thorn , you should be clipped off***

Remember what Momma always says
"trust ur instinct"
and you know your girl right?
... right?
i grew up to have weird bad feelings about every single thing
from a particular kinda look, to going out, parties, friends and all that
i more than trusted my gut feelings
i closed my eyes and placed my gut where they should have been. :)
and as a result i was always...erm ... safe
but what happens when the other girl in me revolts
and brushed my gut feelings as a cheap reason to procastinate
and put a temporary stop in my Utopia
when i overlooked my natural first instinct
and did something the veiled me felt was not ideal to do
might have been something very simple
like buying those stilettos i could not walk in, or giving out my number
miss unveiled keeps saying
'enough already with the excuses
bad feeling my foot
its just a trial'
trials
does this phrase sound familiar
i stay away from sin
because i wouldnt forgive myself after...
burning mirrors show the flames on your face

back to my instincts
when am faced with a decision or when i meet someone for the first time
i subconsciously filter through this persons aura or the situation
and that determines every other thing.
when somethings just not right
not right
i trust my instinct and back off
but on one of those days when i decide to walk in high stilettos - oh well
i always smile at myself n say
i really saw this coming
i saw the signs
i should not be surprised
so, unveiled if you dont mind i will like to dip my dainty lil feet in hot water
thank you very much
its mee sweetneesss

mood today: Navy blue all day... yellow towards midnight
i shud read my Quran more often

Tomorrow: The perfect whyte programme starts, i'll tell you about it later

xoxo

what you know about that?

2009-07-17T01:37:00.000-05:00

distubing picture yeah i know
i am sure she did not do it intentionally
we all makes mistakes dont we...
but oh well. guess what happens happens
you`ll get over it

Today: I stayed indoors all day
I laughed when: i was watching failure to launch

I was wearing: an orange top n black pants
I read: another case study portfolio
Mood: not bothered
Right now: i really should be sleeping
Havent blogged in two days because: of my mood swings

I am in love with: myself at the moment
I have a crush on: nobody this month
My friends are: sleeping i guess
Next big plan is: travelling away for a day
I badly want to: nothing...am too relaxed right now

This time last year: hmmm let me see... lol i was still the same, staying out of trouble and reading too much romance
Last time i cried: 4 days ago, had stomach cramps
Last lie i told: told some gee on the bus, my name was ayeesha
I miss: my mom

Current listen: Karl wolfs Yalla habibi
Really bored with: you know everything bores me
Happy that: i washed my hair today, i conditioned it and i blowdried it, 12 hours later i stretched it
Phobia: hasnt changed... heights, deep water and guys
If i were a guy: ... but am a girl, a happy one at that
I hate: weird dreams, and i have been having disturbing ones
I wonder if: vampires do exist

I`d like: guys who respect themselves
I love: a guy that has no drama
Ì`d get along with: any girl whatsoever
I really hate: people interupting my privacy, or me-hours
People dont know that: i have a really bad memory
People dont believe that: i hate crowds
Worst thing someone has called me: Snob! haaa bless!
off to bed... sweetnessss

Burning ice

2009-07-12T18:28:00.000-05:00

"Cool exterior
Fire within"

hey!! bless blogsville
more and more interesting posts everyday
i simply love everyone here, i mean everyone
i had a great weekend
and i cropped my hair
keri hilson inspired even though it turned out in a rihanna-ish way cute!
(shoot me)
anyway its fantastic and i am loving it
*guess what i watched again?*
parent trap, its been so long yeah
i know right :-) these things i love
so there was a summer get together over the weekend
and it was great
************************************************************
so yesterday, around dinner time, everyone in my house got talking about relationships and how they go bad and all that
which brings me to my very favorite - long distance relationships, like seriously do they really work?
i dont see why not
i am really comfortable with them
but when is long distance really too much distance
i love my space. is that a bad thing?
especially since most guys generalize that when you are not with them
you are definately with someone else
which is not always true.
u might not be with them-true
but you are not necessary with anyone else
*sigh*
i have never been one to bother myself
thank God for my really short attention span... plus my bad memory
I was watching The Game again
imagine if right about the time you are about to exvhange your wedding vows then his fone starts ringing (which should have been off by the way)
and its his (hmm how do i categorize her) baby's mama? ex? ur worst nightmare (just kidding)
maybe not
having a baby. no. his baby
lmao

why is everyone always on beyonce's case?
jeez.
so what if sweetdreams has the same dance as all her others?
so what?
there are a thousand and one other female musicians if u dont like what you see
change the channel, skip the video.. who cares
ohh by the way

*bowing head in shame- UTMOST shame*
i am back on facebook
*sigh*
lol
sweetness
u wont change
anyway i hope this week is gonna go on fine
better than fine, excellently

i love this joke "You know you have a drinking problem when the bartender knows your name -- and you've never been to that bar before."

I leave thee with these words “Always remember that problems contain values that have improvement.”
xxx

u make me smile

2009-07-10T21:56:00.000-05:00

Just want to share some random poems he wrote 4 me
since i dont have anything to blog about
i love the way he writes
i love a guy who writes well

i remember a cold chill creeping up my spine
and the sound of ur voice sayin i was gonna be fine
i felt lyk i'd been stabbed and soaked in brine
quite interesting it wasn't the end of the line
i used to think everyday that you'd be mine
but the good stuff goes quick like a bottle of good wine
feels like its been a year, what happened to time?
to have u in my arms again is my wish divine.

"why do u sound like u wanna pick a fight with me?"
everytime i read that my heart screams "i'm sorry"

then i plummet into a world of nostalgia
and sift through quite a handful of items of memorabilia

and return wen i remember it's not meant to be,

just yet,
another reason for me not to fret,
a very pretty sight in my mind manifest,
that everything that happens is a test test test.
***********************************************

i'm at it again
wont back down till i'm tied with the chain
the one that'll do away with my disdain
the one that'll neutralise ur's and my pain

why's it so hard to speak wen ma mouth's open?
words dont come though they've carefully been chosen
afraid another chord might get broken
and it is yet another point proven

what rhymes with mystery?
how ur thoughts are woven with such dignity
how we're so far apart yet still going strong
how we turn right whatever between us is wrong
how we can, if we choose to, make history
how only one can relate to this piece of mosey

noone has to know where u been
noone needs to hear about what uv seen
as long as u'll never stray oh so far
in my eyes u'll always have a slate so clean
**********************************************************

you can't talk to me without having a fit,
you do what you do without knowing you do it,

you do unto me what you wouldn't do unto others,
you never believed in what's said about birds of a feather,

you elevate and relapse me as though u were a fork-lift,
you keep me going lyk i was working a night shift,

you stand by me, you define forever and ever,
you know who you are, and if you don't, don't bother,

to me, you're nothing short of a heavenly gift,
thinking about you sets my mind adrift,

and when i resurface i realise that there goes the offer,
but you tell me not to mind cos one good turn deserves another.
******************************************************************

i thot i knew but apparently i dont have a clue,
as to who u really are or what you really do,
what goes on in ur head or what u say thats really true,
whether i'm really being me or ur really being you.

i'm never at a loss but i think its the season,
for me to smile and remember everything happens for a reason,
to remember just how free i truly am,
when i end up feeling lyk i'm trapped in a prison.

i find myself thinking if distance is a good thing,
if the fact that i aint near will have an impact on ur mood swings,
if i can live thru another winter and another spring,
knowing u may never know that u are my everything.
**********************************************************

sweet huh? i know
pity we are just friends

current listen: living a lie
rihanna and the dream
xoxo unveiled
its tired-sweetness

...thy sting

2009-07-10T13:29:00.000-05:00

Built a wall around my heart
I’ll never let it fall apart
But strangely I wish secretly
It would fall down while I'm asleep

This life. Its getting scarier
i am scared of calling my friends back home
everytime i do, they go... do u remember ***?
he is dead, or she is dead
And none of these people is even past 25
its true that the death rate is higher
around ages 16-26
78.56% of the people i know fall in this group
life is too short, am seriously having a rethink on everything, for real
what if tomorrow never comes?
everyday i wake up, i thank God deeply
i am not better than the people who did not see this day
yet here i am. alive
Praise be to him
and everyday we go through a thousand and one death traps
choking on the toothpaste
slumping on the toilet seat
falling in the shower
electrocuted by the hair blow drier
struck by lightening on your way out
getting hit by a car
dying of suffocation in a stuck elevator
food poisoning during lunch
getting shot in the station on your way back home
getting stabbed on the bus
falling down the stairs
seeing a death parcel on your bed- and opening it
or the worst, just letting out one long sigh
and slumping
just like that :(

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for all the people we have lost
lets say a little prayer for them
we'll always love you
******************************************************

on other things
it worked!
i woke up at 7am :)
i was so tired, i actually slept
and a dreamless sleep for that matter
bless!
so i got up, did all the necessary things
and went to school for my case study with L.A
we were done in an hour, i went to the lab to print some documents for my project
and i was going back home, and there was this guy beside me
hey hey
whats ur name?
do you speak french?
i have seen you a couple of times...
can i walk you?
how bou ur number?
***
hmm if u kno the number of random things in ma mind right now
anyway i got back and i completed my assignments
submitted them
went to La Senza with Es*ay, then grocery shopping
came back, had spagetti then sang westlife on top of our voices
watched some stuff
started a novel... listened to maroon 5
Can you see me
Floating above your head
As you lay in bed
Thinking about everything
That you did not do
Cause saying I love you
Has nothing to do with meaning it

**********************************
someone asked me a disturbing question.
are you capable of loving someone?

*silence*
am like what?!
of cos i am blah blah blah
i just hate it wen guys do..
i listed bou seven things
and even...
(another one)
but apart from that i am a very tolerant person
i can overlook most things
am just not a clingy person

girls day out

2009-07-08T21:10:00.000-05:00

give me something to believe in cos i dont believe in you, anymore... anymore ¸
and i wonder if it even makes a difference to cry
oh nooo!
aaah i love maroon 5
i was in a beautiful mood all day. i still am
so last night i slept by 11pm and woke up at 3am. could not sleep after that. great
school was fab... always is

i kept noticing random things all day
during my class
YH, my classmate, who sits ryt in front of me had his laptop open
and he was on facebook during our five minute `smoke` break
and he was going through his pictures
and this picture just caught my eye
this fine black guy
okay fine guy is not something i use that often
but this guy was fine, i actually stopped what i was doing to look at the picture
he was a lil darker than me, nice eyes... barely there mohawk
the next picture was even better
then the next one
mr fine guy nd the guy in front of me
k-i-s-s-i-n-g
okay i dont know why i was shocked
i always suspected that YH was gay. cool
i guess i had never seen a gay black guy
lol
a fine one too
so my friend went `is that your boyfriend`
and he was like yeah dats my baby
and all i could think was
**nothing**
awesome

so i told my friends bou my insomnia
leenarh and enkayy
they were like we need to get you tired
so tired ur eyes wont stay open when you get home
so after class we travelled all the way to orleans
can you beat that
totally unplanned but so much fun
then we watched public enemies
johnny depp
*sigh*
SPOILER ALERT
*you might wanna stop reading now if u wanna watch this movie*

i hated the fact that he had to die
twas a good movie tho
we went shopping before that
tried so many shoes, we did not know which ones did not look so good
had lunch, more pictures
time went by so quickly
and of course i kept noticing the most random things
like how asian guys and black girls make a cute couple
how yellow sandals look green in yellow light
how much we all need our friends no matter how independent we claim to be
like how glorious strawberry and chocolate and butter pecan icecream can feel on a hot summer day
how much i despise drama
i hate drama
so i stay away from drama
and guy.. u have drama. so me and you. can never be
how much u just wanna hug someone really tight just because
how much i miss my family
how u never realise how responsible you are until u are far from home
how u never realise how irresponsible some people are until they say some things
how the simplest things are the most confused of all
how much a good father michael jackson must have been
how imperfect we are, and how much we strive to attain some sort of perfection
how i love Gucci bags and gladiator sandals
how the most beautiful things are noot the most expensive
how you can feel alone while surrounded by friends

how people you never knew
suddenly become your family
and even more
how i love everyone in my house

okay its 12 midnyt
am off to sleep
and since am so exhausted lets hope i dont wake up in two hours
if i do
oh well... who knows
gudnyt unveiled
its me sweetness

songs about jane...jain, zain and bain

2009-07-07T19:41:00.000-05:00

in true sleepless fashion i did not sleep till 6 this morning
i woke up past noon
well past noon
its 9pm now
i intend to sleep by 11pm
i must!
cos i have a class early tomorrow
and frankly this bad sleeping habit cannot continue
so help me God

i watched good old 'an affair to remember'
i love old movies
and i love that a little above average
i listened to all the maroon five albums i own
all of them while cleaning my room
if i was a boy, am sure i would sound like them lol

ohh am in a much better mood today
i got a call from a security service
my bus pass is back
bless :)

Do you remember
The way we used to melt
Do you remember how it felt
When I touched you
Oh cause I remember very well
And how long has it been
Since someone you let in
Has given what I gave to you

on the brighter side... am taking part in another play
just with a different cast
its so silly...
now i have your attention dont i
and all i could think was are you kidding me?
funny enough it was around this time last year
So you better turn your head and run
And don't look back
Cause I fear
There is nothing left to say
To you you are becoming too tangled in your own self

am just gonna pick out what i will be wearing tomorrow
its gonna be cloudy tomorrow...
i should get back to my books
sweetdreams unveiled
its me **sweetness**

bad day

2009-07-06T13:07:00.001-05:00

everything started out perfectly
just perfectly
feeling so happy and looking foward to my day
until my bestfriend JH told me i was supposed to base my information report findings on just one company

rewind to 11:45pm last nyt
on the phone
"hey JH hows it goin?"
"hey sweetness, i called earlier but your cousin said u were sleeping"
they always lie to him
"aah um... am awake now"
"so have you finished you information report?"
"yeah! have you?"
"no, how many companies did u do"
"one... you?"
"three, u are supposed to do three..."
"What? i thought we were supposed to form a group of three people and pick one company for our presentation..."
"no, you are going to pick one out of nine... each person is supposed to do a research on three"
and so i did

and now he just said 9 out of my 14 paged well typed out report were no longer needed
are you kidding me?
*breathe in... whoosaaaah*

my automation test was wonderful except for the last question which i totally screwed up, so much that it hurts just thinking about it
Then i went to my last class 4 minutes late and there was a surprise 5 minute quiz, i was barely on number 3 when we were stopped
never in my life have i submitted a quiz/exam/assignment with less than 80% complete
jeez

Just when i thought it couldnt get any worse
after class i reached for my bus pass in my wallet
lo and behold, there was no bus pass
it must have dropped somewhere
and its just the beginning of the month

i dont even wanna think right now cos my migraines sneeking in already

uuurgh!!!

insomniac

2009-07-06T03:28:00.001-05:00

so according to my wall clock, its 4:28am
everyones sleeping, well since am not someone who whines about her insomnia, i did a great deal of internet surfing
since i was gonna be awake again, i'd better enjoy being awake
i just finished watching high school musical
and i loved it
i studied some more, i curled my hair
i picked out a dress for my accounting class by 8am
i was gonna wear blue jeans, a blue tank top and this lovely white top i got for my birthday and my white sandals, but after looking at the forecast i decided to wear my pink summer dress...

as soon as its 5am, am gonna say my prayers then take my bath, jeez everyone will think am weird, like seriously, who takes a a bath at 5am?
oh well
before HSM, i was watching old music videos,mya, nelly, murder inc, jennifer lopez, aaliyah, damn i love aaliyah so much, i used to want to look like her she was so close to perfect... so beautiful
which of cos got me wondering
...
jay zee and aali actually looked good when they were together
but i love bee with jay zee

i read about this ghanian movie on a blog, picture perfect
i googled it and it looks good
am gonna watch it tomorrow night
aah i was watching shayne ward jay holiday and jay sean (again)
i love jay sean
you cant blame me, i love indians

Beep Beep! oh look now there goes my phone
And once again im just hopin it's a text from you..hmm..
It aint right read ya messages twice, thrice
Four times a night its true
Everyday I patiently wait
Feelin like a fool but I do, anyway
Nothing can feel as sweet and as real
As knowing I wasn't waiting in vain..
maybe its true
I'm caught up on you
Maybe there's a chance that ur stuck on me too
maybe i'm wrong
It's all in my head
Maybe We're Afraid of Words We Both Hadnt Said
hmm i love

okay so
i said i will go to the gym later on
i still intend to
i already packed my gym clothes
and tabs for my migraine

while i couldnt sleep i was just thinking
of my GPA for this semester
it had better be high!!! lol

hokaay!
its getting bright... its 3 minutes to 5
gotta jump into that shower
and get ready for class
have a good day unveiled
its me sweetness
xx

School tomorrow

2009-07-05T20:14:00.000-05:00

And i left twitter. bless!
I just finished my assignments
can u imagine, i had since tuesday free
and i still feel like my little friend up there
playfully lazzzzy (aint she cute?)

my bad sleeping habits
for some reason, i dont sleep, or get the inspiration to sleep
until i see the glorious sun rays shinning brightly through my room window
then i pull the covers and sleep till well past mid day
this disgustingly lazy but refreshing habit has been going on for four days now
its time to break it. thank you very much :-)

the gym. yes the gym. the gym
hmmm, i did not smell that gym all through this break
quite sad
NOT!
i'll continue this week
i promise ma self, this week!

i have a test tomorrow... and yeah i studied
i want to watch the time traveller's wife
why?
because i loved the notebook

aywaiz, i really should go to bed now
see u later, unveiled
its me sweetness
xoxo

no longer at ease

2009-07-02T13:13:00.000-05:00

so.. its like this
i come to blogsville everyday
i type a long post... but cant publish it
i have like seven drafts now
because am doing it again, holding back
*when you are so used to keeping everything in, sharing becomes... a sin*
sick huh? i know

okay i intend to cast out any spirit of da old me in me
and give way to the reborn and unveiled me
umm first things first, i have officially left facebook.
i was just reading some stupid status updates, seeing some annoying people i just snapped! before i could think of it ( and i always think before acting)
i just deactivated my account.
then there was this cool air around me, i was no longer suffocating. i felt happy
(and not connected to some stupid twats)

but then i realized that i'll miss the good people on facebook
my friends from my former school (at least there is messenger)
and the new friends i made...
i seriously apologize for the rude exit no warning or anything of the sort...
i was on the verge of shooting a virtual gun
There is this thing i badly wanna talk about but ill be giving too much away
its been on ma mind for so long... like a wound that wont stop bleeding

i said i was gonna talk about UB
UB is the guy i shud have been married to seven days ago
yeah on our birthday haha JOKES JOKES
i met UB when i was 17... on hi5 (does anyone go to that stalker pit anymore???)
lol.
i got a friend request and as i was going through his profile we had da same birthday, i never knew anyone who had the same birthday as me (so... yeah i know i share my birthday with millions of people in the world, i just did not know them)
funny cos now i know a lot of my birthday mates
did i mention that UB was fiiiine?
okay he was fine
so... the usual hi5 messages
i lived my life on the net back then (i still do)
and so did he... when i was sure he was perfectly harmless, we exchanged yahoo ids and we were always chatting

months later, we exchanged phone numbers
and one evening i was in my room in the dorm, my sony erricson started ringing (bless that fone it was my first camera fone, to the envy of my friends :p)and i picked
it was him
wow. nice voice, i mean he did not sound like... UB
he sounded super cool, we talked for a long while about everything and nothing
and i told him i had to go pray because i was going to class to read with my friends
i called him mate
as per birthday mate
he called me mate
as per soulmate

we were always talking.
i knew his friends, he knew mine, i told him everything, even if he tripped on something he would call and be like "mate, i almost fell"
we were best of friends until he asked me out
I did not have a boyfriend but my usual excuse then was 'i have a boyfriend'
so we continued as friends
He lived in Lagos by the way, he told me all about his life, the girls, parties(i dont party so i like people that party), he was a shy guy somehow (like all fulanis are- yes, he's fulani) but he had the whole Lagos aura, i used to tell him about the guys that bugged me, the ones i thot were cute, the ones that were asking me out, all that.
Even my first boyfriend, Lmao
i used to tell my bestfriend about everything, our fights, our beefs, funny things, and he would tell me how some girl pissed him off blah blah blah
until when i turned 19 and me and my boyfriend broke up, he had been single then for a while
He said the person he loved was in love with someone else. me
then he asked me out. again
no hold it people. he was not my rebound guy
i thought about it for a while
and said yes.
so now like the movies, my bestfriend was my soulmate
sweet right?
for a while
there is an unwritten rule that two cancerians should not be in a relationship
we had the same issues
He had a temper, i never tolerated most things
He was jealous, i was quick to judge
but he would apologize... and so would i
but
we
were
always
fighting!
lol
it was hilarious

oh and we kinda look alike
same fulani nose, his is just a longer version of me
am a bit lighter than him
soft spoken, funny like me. prone to mood swings like me.
so i guess we should have just stayed best friends
ohh did i mention that all this while i had never seen him in person
it was an online relationship

and the picture above...
hmm people always tell me i look like her
this chic (i have never watched any of her films, but they made me google her)
i beg to differ
infact i dont see the resemblance
but a week ago, i posted her picture on facebook and everybody kept on commenting
"wow sweetness u look gud, have u added weight?"
and i was like huh?
r u kidding me

*BSNC*
in one of ur replies to my post u asked which celeb i look like
there she is, monique coleman, they say she's in high school musical, even as a teenager i did not watch that... i used to have the songs on my music player because i liked them and we sang breaking free for my high school grad

anyway i keep loving blogsville more and more
ohh i love sean kingstons fire burning... and hova's d.o.a

much love
*sweetness*

Neda Michael and Farrah

2009-06-27T14:02:00.000-05:00

Neda, for your vote, how did u end up all bloodied on the side walk
Michael, always misunderstood, what was the coolest thing before the moonwalk
In the 70s Farrah as Jill Monroe was the talk
Neda while sitting in the heat of that car, did u imagine the heat was gonna get worse, only this time in your heart
Michael what went through ur mind the first time you looked at the mirror and saw your new self for the first time
Farrah did u ever meet Michael

Michael. I think his best look was the thriller look
I think he looked so hot in do u remember
I think his best video is smooth criminal
I think his best song is heal the world. why... because of the message
I love Liberian girl, its a personal favorite.. or is it you and i alone, or lost cildren, or speechless *sigh*
I am listening to better on the other side
A tribute to MJ chris brown, the game n boyzIImen

Its amazing the life he lived
Yes he wasnt perfect
well you are are not either
On a good day, i will list 20 of my favorite musicians and MJ would not even be in the list. I liked him, yes, i loved all his songs but oh well, he was never on my favorites list, he was a regular voice in my house, i grew up watching him, saw people idolize him. Laughed at the MJ jokes but suddenly they are not funny now, were they even ever funny at all... i wonder.

RIP Michael.

And yes my birthday was fab!

Thanks to all the lovely people around me, The best surprises ever.
I had fun, and i talked to UB....

Hedonism II

2009-06-23T01:33:00.000-05:00

As promised, here's the video for Hedonism II
the one i was talking about ran for 10 minutes of bare bronzed glory
*sigh*
this is a summarized version
but u can always check Google for more gist
like i said
i am gonna have ma honeymoon here
lol
*****
i might update this post when i wake up
or not...

much love :)
*****sweetness****

Updates on everything

2009-06-21T00:27:00.000-05:00

First off all i apologize for being AWOL and MIA
mid semester exams

this is going to be so random
my birthday is in 4 days
so is aunapturals :)
its great havinng a birthday mate on blogsville

I have been listening to broken strings
been reading my school books and cosmo

everthings going on fine
i love fridays- todays sunday by the way
facebook is so boring signing in hurts
cant remember the last time i updated my status

i think i have a cold. I hate it when people dont do what they know they should do
its funny when you can see right through people
when you know what they want
and you act so... naive. ha

movies... the proposal
i need... a new hair do
i want... to sleep
i love... beyonce
i am thinking of...making noodles

i want to blog about ub

i will update more updates when i wake up
bonne nuit :)

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ahaa so i am awake now :D
i had a weird dream. i always have weird dreams
anyway Anastasia wants to take my pictures for her spring collection
i have always loved her skills at photography so i was practically blushing when she came up to me
we are doing a light test tomorrow at Roman's studio
and pictures during the week :D

Before that i joined the Goodlife gym close to school
okay before that i got a 3 day free membership
and i saw that the place was good, better than other gyms i went to check out
I started on Pilates and Aerobics.
cos thats all i need, my mom will probably kill me if i lose more weight

The other day out of sheer curiosity i walked to school and back
it was not bad at all, Listening to all my favorite songs and bouncing along, i was home soo fast! i did not take the normal route, i went through Queensway and Iris. (sorry i am sure this is soo random to you)
Infact i have decided to jog to my gym and back twice a week

Today is tax-free sales at Walmart

Yesterday me and Esay got in touch with our *Hausa* side, heaven knows i am tired of wearing jeans every damn day lol
We dressed in complete trad attire. Headgear, matching jewellery, veils and all.
So many people kept looking at us when we went into the grocery store, a couple of people smiled and complimented our regalia lmao
Someone asked to take a picture... flattering but awkward :-D
we went to a friends house, played halo, tekken and mortal combat and i was winning.

i love blogsville, and i am amazed at the beautiful ways people write. bless!

so much 4 updates on the past week
oh theres more!

Does anyone know about Super Clubs?
I am going to look for a promotional video and put it up for you guys
They own Grand Lido, Beaches, Breezes and. Hedonism II and III

Hedonism II
hmm i cant shout
We had this for one of our case studies in class
and i suddenly wanted to go to the Caribbeans for a weekend

***places i want to go to***
**st Domingo** Dubai** Vatican city**
and Hedonism

in case you know Hedonism, don't look at me like a bad person
its a semi nude beach, yeah, but that's not why i am going there. i just think it is a very beautiful place, i may be really comfortable with my body, proud even- but i do not have that guts! (... yet) lol
ha ha i am going there for my honeymoon
really it is a fantastic place, just wait till you see the video
it kinda has bad publicity unfortunately
which was why it was a case study in my class

anyway more about the Hedonism soon

lunch is calling me

****sweetness**** kiss kiss

5 hours at Chapters

2009-06-15T09:57:00.000-05:00

Please read all instructions and warnings before going ahead.
Must be 18 years of age or older to proceed further.
Enter at your own risk.
**LONG POST ALERT**
all resemblances to any person living or dead is definitely intentional

It was raining when i got home, i finished classes earlier than usual. Bracing my self. " hi!" i said with tooo much enthusiasm to no one in particular, i ran down the stairs dropped my books on my bed all the while thinking.. "why do we always have people over? eww
i got my wallet, pulled off my jacket and reapplied my lip gloss.
that was it. i was going out. i need some me time.

Chapters is just a 6 minute walk away from my house, traffic and all, but i did not walk there. reason? cos i did not feel like :-)
I love Chapters and i always will, went into the Starbucks next door i got a cup of coffee and went into my secret haven. Chapters
I love chapters, i have said that like 10 times already so i am sure you can tell.jeez i love books
I started scanning through everything
Biographies, romance, bestsellers. and more
i came back to fiction
The twilight series...
I wanted to get an Edward and Bella poster for Esay but i did not find something different than what i saw in other places.
So i went to a quiet corner and dropped my bag (bad move- nothing happened though, just dont try this in a public place) and i went back to the books

Then i saw L.J Smith.... i haven`t seen those books since high school
Dark angel, secret vampire and all those lovely back-from-the dead stories that made me fall in love with vampires, warlocks and sexy werewolves - you cant blame me. I was 16 then.
Eventually i settled for Dan browns Angels and demons, i read the book last year, and i watched the movie like three weeks ago, and the one i picked had pictures of the Vatican city and churches aah all those interesting names St Peters et al will have images now. Have i ever mentioned that i would love to go to the Vatican city.
I was scanning through the prologue when i got to my seat. My bag was were i kept it, but on the seat a few feet away was a guy, an old guy. He looked french, for some reason my mind went to BSNCs post about rednecks, then he raised his head and said hello, he was in his 60s i guess, i smiled and said hi, and he commented on my dress, he said its unusual and lovely, asked what it was called. Well i was wearing one of these tunic-like dress-like tops my mom sent to me 2 weeks ago, it was brown with long flowing slit sleeves. Very simple. but nice.
As i sat down and tossed my empty coffee cup in the bin he said
i have a lovely smile *blush blush*
okay so i hear that a lot
i have one of these annoying smiles that you cant describe
i was like thank you (and smiled again- Abeg oh i just couldnt stop it)

nice choice... Dan brown

oh yeah, he is one of my favorite i mumbuled

pardon my saying, he continued

although i have read his other books i have not had the chance to go through this particular book... but one thing you should remember is that it is purely fiction, some people tend to get carried away by all they read

i did not bother telling him that i had read the book before, i just said smiled, said i was going to remember that and i started reading

reading and noting the differences from the movie
Vittorias absence during her fathers murder in the book and her finding his body in the movie
the hassasin was replaced by some white guy (phew!) i guess the director did not wanna show an arab as the killer of 3 bishops, there is too much religious crises in the world already
I was around page 73 when the guy next to me offered me some nutribar
i smiled again and said thank you but i was fine, then he gave me a book and asked if i had read it, it was The charlie wilson war by George crile i told him yes and we got talking about it and the movie (tom hanks and julia roberts)
he asked if i was a student and he told me he was a university professor
we talked for a little while more
After another hour he asked me where i was from, I said Nigeria and he said wow! he was from Egypt!

Egypt. i was like, he doesnt look...

like an egyptian

he was like he hears that all the time
we laughed about it and went back to our books

In the movie the Carmelengo went on the helicopter alone. In the book, he was with Robert Langdon.
Intense
My new friend was then curious to know the religions in Nigeria saying that Egypt was predominated by Muslims, and i told him the best about Nigeria.
We got talking more about religion and he told me a sad story
about his old sweetheart
she was a muslim and he is a christian,
a very long and sad story
***
i was looking at this 60 something year old man
sitting on a chair in Chapters, telling me a story about love
the way his eyes twinkled when he talked about her, the way he smiled when he told me all they did to beat the odds, the way he eyes filled when he talked about her parents, his family, their plans to abscond, her arranged marriage,a year in prison, and finally making the hardest decision he has ever had to make in his life
letting go

He was silent for some seconds after that, staring at nothing
you could hear a pin drop. And i could see love in its purest form
in the form of this old man. living in her memory

and i will always love her he said
I was moved.
i was sad.
I was happy that such love exists.
sad.
happy that someone was capable of loving someone so much with more than his body and soul. with ALL of him.
i was sad.
i was happy that her memory not only made him smile, but made him proud. he said i will always love her with so much pride, she seemed like some goddess to me already. And i wondered
where is this love

I need to be in love with someone like madly in love with you i do not care about the world
i don't care what anyone says
not just loving somebody because... oh well. just because
i need to love someone because i love that person, not just because they love me
i need to love someone not caring if he hurts me not because i know he wont hurt me
I need to love him enough to tell him about my blogs
lol

All the while i was looking at this stranger who's name i did not even know and all i could do was smile and tell him i understood his pain. But i did not!
I got to the last part of the book, and on page 443, there was my answer to an argument
... killed the light
i wonder how many times i have to tell them it is proper grammar, they dont agree. well here it was again. In a novel.

We spoke a little Arabic *wink!*
and he told me i was the 2nd muslim he was meeting in chapters that week. I joked that he had an affinity for muslims and he laughed telling me that i should come to chapters more often, he enjoyed our conversations, i said i was gonna try. He had to go to home depot to pick something for his house. His name is Bob and his arabic name is Raèuf. Like me, he is humble (he said so, not me!)
likes books, has a sweet tooth, is African,(his mom is German though, and his dad must have been an almost white Egyptian cos he was practically white!) and loves Chapters

When he left read the last pages of the book. its quite sad, the ending... when the best laid plans end up as a crumbling mess... the carmelengo lost all he had and wished for
Bob lost who he loved and longed for

I walked back home
pity i wouldn't be going back to chapters anytime soon
mid semester exams

**sweetness**

this and that

2009-06-08T16:00:00.000-05:00

My nephew's naming ceremony was on Sunday, his name is Muhammad - i knew long before that that was gonna be his name :)and if it was a girl, she was gonna have my name. yeah, that is how much i am loved :-p
its so sad that am not gonna be holding my baby nephew anytime soon, so all i can do is look at the pictures and sigh

i loove babies, the way they smell... their yawns, their tiny little fists
their eyes, the twinkle in them when they laugh
when i was like 13 or so, my cousins wife brother's wife had a baby soo cute, i fell in love with him like the first time i saw him, he was probably a couple of months then
(his mom was real pretty too) and i liked her

i used to rush home immediately after school so that i could look at the baby (u can't blame me, i am the last child of my parents)

His name is Mohammed too
Mohammed
My dads name
My boyfriends name is Mohammed
My ex boyfriends family name is Mohammed

Talking about my ex
Do you remember girl
I was the one who gave you your first kiss
Cause I remember girl
I was the one who said put your lips like this
(and first boyfriend)
everything i hear reminds me of him
songs we used to listen to together
songs we used to love
Cds i made him listen to (even though he hated them lol)
it felt just like yesterday
u were a part of me
i used to stand so tall
used to be so strong unbreakable like nothing could go wrong....
i think he is the only guy i know that likes Kelly Clarkson

being with you is so dysfunctional
i really shouldnt miss you
after all i choose to let u go

but i still hear your voice in every TI, Kanye, and lil' wayne song i hear
Since I've lost you I'm lost too
Nigga feeling like he at the bottom like a horse shoe
Sorry for the trouble that I put you in your heart too
God knows that I'll do anything for a part 2
Hard to be friends for the day you come back to me
Sayin that you forgive me
give me another chance I'm needing it like a kidney
I don’t want a advance
give me back her hands give me back her touch
I don’t ask for much, but I fucked up
I know I fucked up, I admit I fucked up, but everybody fucks up

who ever imagined moving on could be this hard
maybe staying friends was not such a good idea
cos everytime we talk
it like we are wondering if we made a mistake

dammnit i miss you
reality is a bitch
i will never admit it to you
or anyone else
and it kills me to know i cause you so much pain
but u know u fucked up
you even admitted you fucked up
so i guess
its so much for my happy ending

i watched 'drag me to hell' this weekend
and that was an achievement
i dont watch horror movies
where i gathered the courage from, i dont know
but i missed the best parts
cos i just pushed ma popcorn aside
and buried ma head between my legs -
as usual

i used to hate lil wayne
hmmm wrong choice of words
i used to not like lil wayne
then i listened to shot thru the heart
once twice
and another
and another
there are still some songs of his that i cant stand
but truth be told
i love the ones i love

i have a couple of assignments to do
and if theres any more to write ill be right back
but for now.... theres nada
stay alive

xx
sweetness~!

Vampire Crush

2009-06-08T10:40:00.000-05:00

piercing eyes... unsmiling
never bothered by the jostling around him
one glance in my direction sends my heart into a thousand spasms
he remains unfazed. humourless
totally extreme and almost divine finesse
he walks with the grace of a lion- a predator
looks upon everyone else like mere mortals

i find myself drawn to him
like he is the trigger
to the reason for my destruction.
staying away
and going one step closer to him
avoiding him, and yet being everywhere he is

so, i am in the library reading
...significant fields of study in microeconomics include general equilibrium, markets under asymmetric information, choice under uncertainty and economic applications...
then i felt it... this suction
a sudden rush of cold
isn't that a bad sign?
closed windows, closed doors and unexplainable cold
doesn't that mean a ghost is near or something?
ghosts that...
OHHMYYGOD!
there he was
sitting right across me
dropping his books on the table

he was actually glowing
i swear am not crazy! i wasnt seeing things
was it the light above him?
but i was not glowing
nobody else was.
there he was perfect- like some greek god
so close
His eyelashes curled downwards
what? eyelashes??
damnit sweetness
what are you thinking??

i glanced down
oops! those arms...
running his fingers through my locks...
his hands around my waist
pulling me closer.
snap back to reality!
okay. so i have to leave this place. like right now.
i should get water
no not water. gum
yes. chewing gum
"gum?"
huh???
and i looked up
he was offering me gum... with a smile
"care for gum?" he repeated
a smile that made him look like he did not belong to this world
perfected his perfection. oh my he was gorgeous

and he is a vampire!
how else did he read my mind?
how did he know i wanted gum?
i read that vampires can control you
control your mind and make you do anything they want you too
i should get out of here fast!
"sure" the voice did not sound like mine
"thanks said the voice again as i watched my hands stretch to reach for the gum he was offering

***sweetNess**

Steam and Fire: letting it out part two

2009-06-03T21:20:00.000-05:00

Thanks everyone for the comments on my last post
the baby is fine
beautyinblack
miss.fab
BSNC
juiceegal
RocNaija
ur far too kind :)

Serious (and really unnecessary Rant) Alert

I will seriously love to apologize for the terrible mood i am in right now.
for the mood that only got worse cos i tried to cover it
by smiling
and being nice
and nodding my head
and pretending i understand
that its okay
when i don't, when its not

and they wont even let me be alone when i need to be
my only line
to sanity...

okkayy so. i was sitting in class and minding my own business, not talking to anyone, looking at my computer screen and the guy beside me yawneeeed wiiiiiide. with his mouth wiiiiiiide open. while checking something on my computer screen
imagine who does that anymore? who does not cover their mouth when they yawn ehn?
as if i did not have enough issues on my mind already

and now i remember this guy that used to pick his nose... pity cos he was cute. unfortunately

okay okay am not always like this
most times...

oh today i did something *ehem* harsh?
i dunno
i met a couple of peeps, the usual introductions. names. handshakes.
and... i refused to shake his hand
cos they... they looked sweaty
and he had dirty fingernails
no!
i did not leave his hand floating in mid air
what am i saying?
of course dats what i did
i mean, i did not make it look too obvious
i tried not to make it too obvious
i started looking for this 'thing' in my bag
like immediately after i smiled and said hello

i could not even help myself
it was like reflex. so fast

am not a bad person really...
and no i don't have OCD
i guess...
i just don't like dirty fingernails
sweaty palms
definitely not on one of my not-so-good-days

*sigh*
am aaaarghing so much it sucks
*double sigh*

i wrote a poem, in between classes
a weird poem
but i love it, i'll post it tomorrow
it is called For a Girl
talk about weird weirdness lmao

have you ever come across people who do not weigh what they say before it actually leaves their mouths?
and the sound they make, just creates this uncomfortable silence cos you are
a) so embarrassed for them
b) or too angry to comment
or if you are like me. get sarcastic.
that burns i tell you

am sure am not the only one
am positive there are people who hate ringing fones.
no?
really?
no-one?
*awkward silence*
oh ok then
i hate ringing fones. sometimes
back in Naija. i could switch off my Fones for a whole week
reason: just because
sometimes u just don't wanna be available

God am something else
i really should stop typing
i'll be better in the morning
definitely!
and i'll blog about something blog-worthy like
i dunno like 'blog-worthiness'
:)

ohh by da way
my neighbor has this motion-sensor sprinkler
not a good thing to come across at 7:30am while rushing out
as soon as u are close
close = on the other side, minding your business, checking your wristwatch and totally unaware it just goes WHOOOOOOOOSSSSSH

*deep breathe*
whoosaaah

anger management, lol i shud blog about that soon
but angry at what?
nothing!
yucky mood

sweetness

my absence

2009-06-01T18:11:00.000-05:00

First things first
am an aunt!
my big bro and his lovely wife had a baby on their wedding anniversary, bless!
oh and by the way, he is my only brother and am the only girl so that makes this bundle of cuteness (i have been over using that since Saturday)more than special to me

my absence: dats the reason right there. Danielle Steele... again
i got 4 danielle steele novels 5 days ago, Amazing Grace, Zoya, Heartbeat and Promise
. needless to say, sweetness has read all these books twice or thrice already and as usual, whenever i get them in my hands, i read them again - and again. weird huh? i know!
Of all Danielle Steele's novels, Promise is my favorite
My best
and in true Danielle Steele fashion, tears r always shed during the course of curling up and reading this awesome awesomeness (?)Lmao

oh there were also a couple of random Harlequins and Blaze (i told y'all i was a sucker for these things)

But i have been stalking peoples blogs as usual, finding more and more interesting things and dammit i love blogsville *sigh*

And i have been listening to old songs... no. like really old songs anyway that is just by the way
I made Coffee Flambes the other day

I watched Wolverine and i only loved Hugh Jackman even more
I watched Angels and demons and i think Ewan Mcgregor out shined Tom Hanks

Today is Es*ay's birthday... lol
am counting down to mine
Oh i have a second birthday mate - on blogsville
My first birthday mate
U.B
lol story for another day
but that is a loooong story

luv luv... sweetness

On TV: my favorite commercial

2009-05-25T19:50:00.000-05:00

Today in my Marketing class, we were devising strategic ads for specified products.
Based on either humor, repetition or just plain annoying, and we were asked to analyze and talk about our favorite commercials ever.
Lo and behold! i could not come up with a single decent Ad i could share with the class, because, guess what? my favorite commercials are either chocolate commercials with half nude men scantily covered or condom Ads.
yes
i said it
condom Ads
is it only me or has anyone noticed that Condoms (after Chocs of course) have the funniest commercials on TV?
well and for some reason, i always stumble across them- for a reason i dunno... yet?
boredom perhaps.
or a hunger for something different

anyway back to Choc Ads...
my topmost favorite is the Sexiest Ad for the Sweetest thing
that's just for the record
i kinda like hilarious commercials, humor based Ads than anything.
The type that kinda make you wonder what the Ad is about and when it gets to the end you go like " are you kidding me?"
And as everyone knows funny things are usually the sexist, racist or stereotyped ones, so i wasn't ready to share my private jokes with the class (syke!!!)
so i had to think of the plainest Ads i had ever seen that managed to get a smile from me
so i finally settled for a Nike commercial the Hot dogs one
everyone thought that was hilarious
and in my mind i was like "if only u knew... i just goggled it 3minutes ago"
nevertheless i enjoyed it.
i mean, who wouldn't think the guy was trying to save the Cart
but ketchup?? okay really i did not see that coming

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ev8ycEsljK4&feature=related

but anywhere there you are!

Tattoo: An indelible mark

2009-05-24T19:10:00.000-05:00

Today my post (inspired by http://whatnigerianwomendealwith.blogspot.com/2009/05/like-tattoo-he-is-permanent.html) is called Tattoo

Disclaimer
Names wont be down only initials to save the not-so-innocent
All relationships (including those you deny leave some sorta mark on you whether you admit it or not)
so am gonna make a list of guys (and maybe girls) that have taught me a lesson or three in the years past

B.A and all 'royal crew', former neighbors... they left a tattoo in my mind barely 13 then, watched them change their girls like tee shirts, tossed them around and without knowing i just saw guys as human species not meant to be trusted
A.U mister fine guy, my 1st serious toaster, he left a tattoo, still can't decipher what.
U.I my high school crush and he never knew! he left a tattoo of a pen on my right hand, he was a beautiful writer wrote da most amazing things, funny enough i started writing cos of him, we were friends, he was 'prom-king material' and we talked about everything except us, we had da same problems and different solutions
U.B my birthday mate and best friend, became friends when i was 17 but i never met him until 3 years later... he left a tattoo on me... somewhere on my head, my forehead taught me to believe in myself and to care for other peoples feelings
M.M my first love, first kiss, first (and only) i-hate-how-much-i-love-you, he left a tattoo on my neck, nobody sees it, even me, except when am alone, looking at da mirror, then i touch my neck and smile
J.M my girlfriend, left a tattoo i after all the crying i did for her, with her
i will not make the same mistakes that you did i will not break the way you did you fell so hard
i promised myself i was never gonna let a guy hurt me da way she hurt, the way she cried
F.M my tweeny and her boyfriend A.Y made me believe in true love, the unconditional type
A.Q her new boyfriend made me change my perspective on the 'forever kinda love'
C.B made me realise that some people can just fall deeply in love with you for no reason at all

sweetness wouldnt be sweetness without all these people...
who messed up my sweet naive mind
made me run from what i thot i cud avoid
love myself
appreciate people
understand everything

This week... so far

2009-05-22T17:31:00.000-05:00

This week was my best in a long while
Had a holiday on Monday
the golf fund raising dinner on Tuesday
worked late till past 11pm
slept with a migraine (yeah its back)
woke up 4 hours later to review for my accounting test
classes on Wednesday were fab
The test was great
The meeting with my boss went well yesterday
I learned how to make flambes!
unfortunately i cant eat them cos they have alcohol
but who cares? i had lots of ice cream instead with lovely cherry toppings while everyone else enjoyed the flambes...
Nikolay is teaching me Russian :)
nd Anastasia and myself have been inserting little words like privet, pa'ka :)
oh well just da basics, dont worry in 3 months i will be sending you postcards from Russia
anyway am so happy its friday
am gonna watch a movie in ma room tonight
read a novel... pamper myself and all that
hmmm... facebook is becoming boring
oh yes i wanna watch The Game... again
right now am watching Gossip girl
*sweetness*

How to make a Flambee

2009-05-22T17:01:00.000-05:00

So today i feel like sharing a beautiful recipe with you
one of my very favorite desserts

A cherry flambe jubilee

A flambe is any food that has liquor poured on it and ignited to burn off the alcohol and give it a flavour

for this particular one you'll need

cherries (preferably canned cherries from your grocery store)
sugar (about a table spoon)
butter ( a full tablespoon scoop)
cherry liqueur
Brandy
An orange cut in half

you heat your pan put some sugar and after a minute you add ur butter picking the orange with a fork you stir your mixture for another minute, then you add your cherries along with some cherry juice from the can and you continue stirring as much as you can to get the citrus flavour. you tilt ur pan upwards so that all the liquid is collected at the bottom and you heat the top after about 30 seconds you remove from heat and pour an ounce of brandy

MAKE SURE YOU STAND BACK AS YOU RETURN THE PAN because there is going to be a huge flame which is da best part of the show :-p

pour a little cherry brandy over it for some flavour and serve over ice cream
enjoy!

pieces of me, pieces of you, pieces of her

2009-05-22T16:25:00.000-05:00

When your mind is a mess
So is mine
I cant sleep
Cause it hurts when I think
My thoughts aren't at peace
With the plans that we make
Chances we take
They're, not yours and not mine
There's waves that can break
All the words that we say
And the words that we mean
Words can fall short
Can't see the unseen
Cause the world is awake

And know that if I knew
All of the answers I would
Not hold them from you'd
Know all the things that i'd know
We told each other, there is no other way

Well too much silence can be misleading
You're drifting I can hear it in the way that your breathing
We don't really need to find reason
Cause out the same door that it came well its leaving its leaving
Leaving like a day that's done and part of a season
Resolve is just a concept that's as dead as the leaves
But at least we can sleep, its all that we need
When we wake we will find
Our minds will be free to go to sleep

And know that if I knew
All of the answers I would
Not hold them from you'd
Know all the things that i'd know
We told each other, there is no other way

There's no combination of words
I could put on the back of a postcard
No song that I could sing
But I can try for your heart
Our dreams, and they are made out of real things
Like a, shoebox of photographs
With sepiatone loving
Love is the answer,
At least for most of the questions in my heart
Like why are we here? And where do we go?
And how come it's so hard?
It's not always easy and
Sometimes life can be deceiving
I'll tell you one thing it's always better when we're together

*