Thursday, March 18

Wingless Words

I love Coldplay, i listen to them a lot
their words speak to me
So many contradictions, making you think in metaphors
they give me, peace-of-mind
they touch the pieces in me
"If you love me, u shud let me go"
go: Move away from what i know
No, thats what i tell myself, because you know i need you
And i love you, i just suck at expressing it
"Am i part of the Cure, or a Part of the disease"

My all time favorite line was from the song Rush of Blood to the Head
"Oh am gonna buy this place and see it burn, take back the things i did to you in return,
said am gonna buy a gun and start a war, if you can tell me something worth fighting for" 

Suddenly i dont like that line anymore.
It has lost its meaning to me. It sounds...violent 
Theres too much fighting already

 On a closely related issue...
Where did all the good girls go?
To a place called Home
A place where girls
are taught to love themselves, and imitate no one, 
demand and demonstate respect the minute they walk in that door

To a place called the past
Back when anxiety was as simple as wondering 
if Wonder woman would make it out alive
When Failure was as simple as failing Maths
When promises were as simple as Pinky bets
When 'Maybe' was an answer

Or maybe they went to the Future
Where a good man is hard to find
And a hard man is good to find
When Real eyes realize Real lies
Where u only say what you mean

How did we grow up so fast?

Wife of a Pharoah, Mother of a a Slave
Do you know what's worth fighting for? sticks and stones may break your bones
When it's not worth dying for?
if not, then use these words, for they will always teach you

Does the pain weigh out the pride?
And you look for a place to hide?

When you're at the end of the road
And you've lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul
Your faith walks on broken glass
Nothing's ever built to last
(damn it thats a bummer, just how did i go wrong?)
just remember that you are strong
and if doesnt break you it will only make you funnier
and stronger

Listening to: K'naan - Wavin Flag

Friday, March 12

No Words, Another Jumble of words :)

Goodness, i am blogging again, after so long
No words can describe this feeling
It feels new to me. Its been a while
Well naturally am gonna blame it on school and twitter, yes twitter.
putting updates about what am up to every 30 minutes sort of makes blogging... (wait wait... i didn't say unnecessary)it makes blogging hard.
Okay now the real reason. Unveiled. Yeah,sweetness isn't an anonymous blogger anymore, so honestly, i just hold back.

I found interesting pictures (i say interesting due to lack of a better word)or should i call them clip shots from BANNED commercials, am sure i mentioned it sometime last year, i google up banned commercials for lack of anything better to do. lol. but seriously its not a joke
and am gonna be putting up these pictures as i go along, tell me what you think, are they really bad, overly suggestive or distasteful.

Then i came across these

No words can bring one poor soul back
Just Prayers.
Prayers for Peace, Understanding, Forgiveness and Humanity

I read eyes
I get withdrawn when i notice the slightest negative energy
I forget easily
I remember names of my teachers from Nursery school
I cant remember what i wore yesterday

I imagine my Funeral just like that
I have 5 scenarios of how i am gonna die
The first one was when i was 11

I dont watch Horror films

I honestly love my mom with every fibre in my being

I act like i dont know somethings just because.
I cry when i see old people that are helpless

I dont trust easily

I have terrible mood swings

I write Random things

I love old movies

My greatest fear is Cancer

I dont know what i'll term as my happiest day

I am addicted to the smell of unwrapped soap
I inhale washing detergent
I believe i get high on it
I cant leave Walmart without going to the detergent section

I make a thousand things up

I listen... to you talk

If you insist that i talk, i can talk about nothing - its a gift

I cry when i pray... and he forgives me

I will end up as a vegetarian


" Its gonna be on Visa please"
I can recognize a Nigerian Voice anywhere, its not just the voice its the accent, or maybe how we stress the 'gonna' and 'wanna' in our sentences.
And this particular voice, i knew a little too well, i looked up and of course it was her, looking on point as usual.
" Hi Sandra! " I said, some people have this effect of bringing out my ridiculously cheery alter ego, she was one of the few. That's cos she has this lively and bubbly personality, its almost infectious.
"Hows it going?" i asked, taking her card, newly manicured tips, bright red, like her lips bright red, some girls are blessed with pulling off things like these.
"OMG sweetness!, where have you been?" she gushed, pushing the fringe away from her face, it fell back again, covering her eyes again, she pushed it away one more time.
The smile on her face completely transformed her, the looked younger than her 22 years.
" I have been around, school... work" i said as i collected her card and punched in the amount i gave her back to punch her password
"yeah, same with me", she said, "i haven't seen you since Montreal"
" I know right.. I..."
I suddenly forgot what i wanted to say
I paused
I looked again
Then i saw it.
Scars, across her wrists, both wrists.
I stared. dumbfounded.
I've read about this a couple of times, but, someone as happy who looked as happy as her?
are you kidding me???
She looked up, saw what i was looking at and the smile faded, her eyes shifted, i met her gaze as she tugged her sleeves down.
No words
it wouldnt be enough
No words
The silence said alot
No words 
It wasn't an awkward kind of silence, it was a shocked one. You know, the one that suddenly stays in the room with you when you find out something u wish you didn't.
"see you around" or at least thats what i think she mumbled
 i watched her walk away, like anyone else
I couldn't find my smile for the rest of the day, i kept wondering
What on Earth could be so bad, that you would try to take your own life
And look how happy everyone thinks she is
Look how happy she makes the people around her
Who would have ever thought...

Saturday, March 6

lets try

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse.

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above earth or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Thursday, January 7


School is reopening on Monday.
Today was my friend Nk's birthday
We had dinner at Chances R.. it was awesome
I just heard that a former classmate is dead
The only one person that can hurt you is the one person you give the chance
I'm Scared to try cuz I'm scared to fail

I'm scared to die cuz I'm scared of hell

I'm scared of you cuz I'm scared of me

I'm scared to fly I'm scared to crash

I'm scared of love cuz I'm scared he'll leave

I'm scared to swim cuz I'm scared to sink

I'm scared to learn cuz I'm scared of truth

I'm scared to start cuz I'm scared I'll quit

I'm scared to grow up cuz I'm scared to get old

I'm scared of the dark and being alone

Scared to share a secret cuz I'm scared you'll tell

This must be the worst part of falling so deeply in love with someone
Fearing that they will leave

Current Listen: Jazmine Sullivan, Fears

Monday, January 4

lies... so much lies

I just finished unpacking
Earlier today i was reading All I want.. again
I am listening to Adam Lambert on TV
Looking at my phone.. hoping it doesnt ring
Not now atleast and thats just because i wanna watch the secret life on the american teenager and its starting in a few minutes
I started following it like a week ago
and i love it already
Happy New Year people!
I was with with my Mom all this while
She keeps complaining that i dont eat
And i remembered my last post
So my Boo read my blog
all of it
and he said "am never gonna read your bog again"
Sometimes i think i have the bestest friends one can ever wish for
Its freezing outside, so much
There is a disturbing gist i need to share with you guys
This girl from my former school wanted to break up with her boyfriend
Her boyfriend of 4 years, really nice, faithful and smart
Her Reason: Her Dad suggested she gets married to his friends son and she can never 'disobey' her dad
The truth of the matter, she thinks Mr Family friend is richer than her boyfriend even though he is older, afterall all her friends are getting married
Her Problem: She cant break up with him cos her conscience wouldnt let her after all he has been through for her
See this chick talking about conscience when her eye is scopping the BMW wedding gift, honeymoon in Dubai and Switzerland...
So her 'friends' advice her to do a 'ya kopsa'
ya kopsa = he effed up literally
apparently thats a new way of breaking up with people
that only a few nasty ones know about
And its been going on for a while
A totally random girl, probably in the same uni or outside is paid to sleep with him
My mind is thinking somewhere around the line hooker much?
She probably starts hitting on him in the club, class... wherever
The whole process takes about a week
Sometimes it doesnt really get to the sleeping part
somewhere around the kisses and make out session
Miss Girlfriend comes around

and does the whole act
" I cant believe this!!! how could you?!"
Creating a scene, and officially breaking up with him
Leaving the poor guy feeling bad about
'Cheating' on her
or almost cheating on her

How unfair is this? seriously?
So, this case went bad when after weeks of him trying to get back to his girlfriend, apologising while shes recovering from the so called heartbreak enjoying a guilt free shopping spree for her wedding
A friend of hers who felt the guy did not deserve such pain told him the whole story
and even brought the hooker.. sorry other girl to verify the story

Hmm life
Very intersting

Hey guys gotta run, The secret life just started
Much love

Sunday, December 20

Exams. Done!

This post represents the official view of the voices in my head

So i wrote my last paper
How can someone be so excited after exams?
i can't explain it myself
I cant even explain how i missed blogging
well actually i lost my Mojo for writing
I have been saying Mojo alot
infact let me find out the Real meaning of Mojo
The word originally means a charm or a spell. But now its more commonly said meaning sex appeal or talent.

Haha!! Sex apppeal

Your cool/style essence.
Thanks Urban Dictionary

So i basically lost the zeal to write
Y'all know how it is


I typed that three four days ago... can't remember
and i saved it, just remembered it as i was typing todays post
Britanny Murphy is dead. The girl from Clueless, 8 mile, Uptown girls, Love and other disasters

If i was not blogging
Photography will be my hobby
But then again i'll put the pictures online and make a photo blog
so that will still make me a blogger right?

I have been hearing so many good reviews about the movie Avatar
from my friends on facebook, twitter, bb chat and blogsville
I am going to tell you three reasons why i was never never eager to see this movie
1. I am very attracted to good looking people and honestly when watching a movie thats what keeps me going apart from a good storyline. Blue skinned aliens just dont make me tick,
2. they even have tails
3. I was secretly hoping Titanic will be James Camerons best movie

but apparently there is something skin deep and really remarkable about this movie apart from the blue and green tinged skin
And theres a love story, you all know am a sucker for love stories
So am going to watch it next week.

5 days to Chrstmas!
Am gonna say 5 random things that happened to me in 2009
* I fell out of love

* I got my first paycheck

*I grew up, emotionally and mentally

* 2009... Nine years on, and he is forever in my heart. Celebrated yet another birthday without my Dad.

* And i volunteered at an organization called Easter Seals, helped to raise money for kids living with disabilities

According to a Research 95% of females look at the mirror and see only imperfections
7 out of every 10 women look at the mirror and point 3 body parts they will like to modify
The remaining 3 would like to modify just one body part
Girls around ages 15-19 find faults in their nose
Those around 17-24 feel something is wrong with their arms and stomachs
3 out of every 4 girls believe they will look better if they were slimmer
240 different guys from different continents looked at videos and close up pictures of these girls and thought they were beautiful
56% of these guys believed they were looking at pictures and videos of foreign actresses
98% of the guys could not find any fault in the girls
2% of the guys said three of the girls looked 'insecure' and 'unsure'
None of these girls were models or actresses, they were normal girls who submitted applications for cosmetic surgeries
Dear Reader. You are beautiful.
Yes you are.
The pic ur about to see is NOT a joke

Current Listen:
Alicia keys: Sleeping with a broken heart
Jay Z: Song cry